2017 HITS IT PURELY LUCK

Frankly, i don't have any idea on what to blog today but i just feel like logging in, and so i did. Few minutes later, the idea popped out since i got my best 9 photos on Instagram from Google. Clearly 4 out of 9 best Instagram photos for 2017 are photos of me with my convocation jubah. Well, true enough since me, my sister and my best friend were graduating this year (And obviously, I don't know what convocation jubah is called in English speaking world but whatever will Google later). 

2017 has been good to me so far (Alhamdulillah). I can claim that 2017 is one of my most productive year since it was my non stop journey from completing my degree, to working part time at Shell learning about coffee, know a lot of people and the year of me pursuing my Master's degree. I was once so afraid of not being accepted to pursue my Master's degree cause pursuing Master's degree is one of the ultimate goal in my life and at that time, i don't feel like working yet or even feel like browsing for a permanent job related to my field. Thus, pursuing my studies shall be one of the best option and again, Alhamdulillah here i am. 

I don't know what 2018 or what the future holds for me but i pray that i get better in everything by days. Can't believe that i'm turning 25 real soon. I was once thought that 25 year-old is old enough and now, in one and a half month time, i will be 25. Time is a funny thing. I mean, last year i was worrying sick about whatsoever, and today, it doesn't even matter anymore. Last year i have so much hate on someone, and today, i just couldn't care less. See? I love how we all learn with time. No matter how high the ego, how tall the wall or how fat the chance is, most of them will change in time. Not instantly, but eventually. For the better. And i am the living proof of that. 

Guess i wrap 2017 way too early since we still have a week left for 2017. Anything can happen in a week (May Allah ease). Before i sit with a brand new 2018 planner getting ready to map out 2018, i would like to just take a moment, look at 2017 and say thank you. Thank you for the memories, the lessons that taught me, the simple joys that marked my days and for enabling me to do what i love. It's always so exciting to say good riddance to the current year and give a big waving arms hello to a brighter new year. 2018 is going to be a great one and we'll get there soon enough.

DISASTEROUS SEMESTER

I can't believe i didn't blog about my convocation yet. I might not even blog about it. Ugh. Well, i was actually already so ready to blog about my convocation day last November. But then i was waiting for our pre-convocation photos. And when we already got all the photos, i just don't have that much time no more. Nah, i do have some free time, but i prefer to sleep, eat and sleep, eat and repeat. Like, what else? I need my rest too duh! And thank God for this 1 hour waiting for my evening class in the FSKM Postgraduate Lounge. So instead of doing my tons of work, i'm just gonna fly my fingers on the keyboard for this post. Hehe. 

Literally we only have like 2 weeks until we end this semester. I swear especially next week gonna be hellish to achieve the tightest schedule possible since it feels as if all the lecturers were like sitting together and like "Ok let's just torture these kids. Tell them to submit everything, give them all the freaking tests during week 13 hahaha" And the students were like, "What even guys? Have you guys ever heard the word mercy?" And the lecturers reply altogether, "Kids, we invented MERCY. All of you are postgraduate students already. Stop being such a baby or we will send all of you back to degree or maybe kindergarden" (?)

OK. Enough with the voices in my head. Damn. I swear i can go all day with the voices since i have a lot of imaginary friends and imaginary situations and all of the imaginary thingy. 

Back to the point. So, this semester gonna end on this 22nd Dec. But we will present our dissertation proposal on 10th Jan. I really really really hope that i can pass all of these 5 subjects of the semester including my proposal (AMEN!). So that i can celebrate my 25th birthday next Feb worry free. I know it's only Dec and i'm already looking forward for Feb. But i swear time is racing toward us like no other. I know i may be too young to feel like i'm running out of time. But honey, everybody always running out of time regardless their age. I don't even know why. Only God knows. May Allah ease us our December. Amen!

WAKEUP AND MAKEUP

It was a boring evening at the Postgraduate Lounge, FKSM when i scrolled through the Instagram and suddenly saw a post from a Make Up Artist (MUA) saying that she needs a model for a makeup class. I don't even wait for a second thought that i directly Whatsapp-ed her telling that i was interested. She told me to send her a photo (or two) of mine. And she will hit me back if i'm the one she's been looking for. And two weeks later, she contacted me and told me that i'm the chosen one. I was happy like, of course! Why shouldn't i? Only this one thing that makes me unhappy... The MUA told me to wear a shawl instead of bawal, my eternal ideal headscarf. I swear i never look good when i'm wearing other than bawal. I know most of my friends including my sister told me that i look pretty or okay in it or whatever, but i know myself so much. Cause i'll never gonna look as good as wearing bawal when i put on a shawl on my head.  No second opinion. But yeah, it's okay though. It's not that bad right blabla. 

So the makeup class was held at Seksyen U12, Shah Alam. Only about 3km from my house here. The class started from 10am until 5pm. From 10am until 1pm was the time for students (including my MUA) to learn about the makeup skills and whatnot. In this class, they were learning about how to do bridal makeup; smoky makeup and doll makeup. On my face was the dolly look. I mean, come on, it's obvious. The 'teachers' show them on how to apply the makeup with a demonstration on this one model. I swear the model looks very pretty. I don't know if it's the makeup, but she also looks kinda haughty. Maybe because of the attitude that the makeup gave her. Idk. And on 2pm onwards, after the class break, the students will do the makeup with their models of which one of the models was me. 

I swear the makeup literally took about two to three hours long. This is my second time a MUA did makeup for me. She took more than half an hour only for the eyebrows. Somehow, she did a great job tbh. To me, she was very thorough and committed to her job. I like her. In fact, i do feel pretty and different. And i do feel like a doll too. Except for the fact that my round face is just not meant to wear a shawl. So i still think if i were wearing bawal, i'll look better. Haha. Thank you to the MUA for giving me such opportunity. It's a win win situation because she was learning too. Which she was actually just experimenting the makeup on my face. But still, i looked pretty so it's okay hunny hehe. Probably gonna hire her in the future for such events. Maybe.

P/S: I apologize for not mentioning the MUA's name or tagged her in my Instagram photos. It's not that i don't want people to acknowledge her with such talent. It's just that, i have insecurities. Lol! She posted a before and after photo of me and the before applying the makeup photo, i think i look ugly as hell. I swear i'm not that ugly irl guys. I can prove that okay! I really hope that nobody that knows me will ever see that photo. Amin!

WORN OUT AND WEARY

We got a 5 hours Statistical Modelling test yesterday (it was supposed to be only 3 hours, but the questions were ugh so the Professor extended it up until 5 hours). Along the way while answering the "only" 2 questions, my only thought was, "I want this to end real quick. Please end this very soon. Cepatlah cepatlah penat sakit otak!". I swear this semester is way more tiring and stressful compared to the previous semesters. I am well aware about this semester since most of the seniors were whining all the time about how suffering the semester was. But actually i thought that i can handle it lol! I was wrong. Yes i said it. Who cares?!

I never wanted for the semester to end that much until now. I almost gave up that i wanted to quit my Master studies for real (just for a moment). I feel like the more i'm studying, the more i explore about everything, the unwiser i am becoming. But i'm not blaming anyone or anything about it. Since i believe that that is the actual concept of learning. Because every time you learned about something, there's always something else that you need to learn related to it. It's a never ending loop. Like, you might feel like reaching the summit but you'll never gonna go beyond that. Okay i lost point on what i was about to say. But, you get my point right? K.

As much as i'm tired of my studies, i thank god that He makes me someone who is firm with her decisions (Alhamdulillah). I always know what i want. This is what i want. I will NEVER gonna quit my studies just because of how slow learner or how sad and tired i am of everything. Though i actually really wanna quit my study cause i hate everything, everyone and every every every *screaming internally*. On the contrary, in actual fact, the obstacles actually doesn't block the path. They are the path. At the end of the day, if i get tired, i always need to learn to rest. Not to quit. I am not a quitter. I won't feed my demons. I won't let people being happy seeing me fall. I won't let people underestimating for a long time. And because of my need to know is forever greater than the desire to be fooled. 

May Allah ease Afiqah Norazizi's Master's Degree journey that she ace (or at least pass) all of the subjects, graduate on time, get a decent job, get married to a great husband, be productive along the way, be happily ever after and may Allah accept this Dua. Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin. 

Also, something to ponder:

“Barangsiapa yang menginginkan dunia maka hendaklah berilmu. Barangsiapa yang menginginkan akhirat, maka hendaklah berilmu. Dan barangsiapa yang menginginkan keduanya, maka hendaklah dengan ilmu.”

MOTORCYCLE GRAND PRIX 2017

I love weekends so much that it hurts my feeling when it's weekdays. Plus it's already end of October of which the time that all of us (the students) will be getting super busy with assignments, group projects and whatnot. I swear i burn the midnight oil literally every night that i even feel like there's no oil left to burn for the coming days because i'm already zombie af since i sleep for only 3 to 4 hours per day. Zzzz. Wait, plot twist! I'm actually not even a zombie yet hahaha. Such a drama queen. But it's not that i enjoy giving up on my hobby (read: sleep on my bed) and only sleep on the couch everyday because there's loads of work to be done. Somehow, i feel grateful for the energy that i have. I mean, my body is not easily tired lately. Perhaps because of the peer pressure since everybody is working very hard, that my body as well force herself to not being a weak lamb. Like, even though yesterday i only sleep for 2 hours and today, i still can up all night to do this and that. Idk about you, but i feel amazing lol. Let's see how i'll be in two weeks time. I wonder if the word amazing is still appearing. Ha!

Ok why am i here again in the first place? SHELL MALAYSIA MOTOR GP 2017! I've always wanted to go to Sepang to experience a race since like forever. But i don't really make any initiative to go there back then. And when my high school girl, Miraz posted about the Motor GP on the WhatsApp Group, i absentmindedly, straightly booked two tickets from her. It's only RM60 per ticket for the Hillstand. But God knows how hot the weather was there. I even effed up and get a sunburn. But maybe just our luck, Pak Long Pijan was there too. It's us who contacted him first to asked about the parking area and whatnot. And then he told us to meet him somewhere and poof! MAIN GRANDSTAND PASS FOR BOTH OF US! I can't even contained my excitement when he told us about the pass. May Allah bless Pak Long Pijan.

I love the idea of women riding a superbike that i wanna be one of them. Well, this may just be a wishful thinking but whatever. Hahaha. Perhaps someday i might get myself one. God knows. Me and my sister were literally in our zones and dreaming of owning one superbike when we were there. So dreamy that i don't even have a time to feel insecure with the pretty, super skinny models that were also there. Though i was figuratively like a fat ass potato when i'm next to them. Lol. And the Grand Prix was indeed grand. So much excitement, so much to look forward to. Even the sound was too loud that i can't even hear anything but the good quality engine sounds. I had so much fun though i know nothing about Grand Prix. Yeah, i had fun. And that's all that matters. Another one crossed off the bucket list. Alhamdulillah. 

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

"We were sad of getting old it made us restless.

Oh i'm so mad i'm getting old it makes me reckless"

MID SEMESTER BREAK

Sarah Yazmin's Graduation Day (15/10/2017) at UiTM Shah Alam

Syaqirin Norazizi's Graduation Day (17/10/2017) at UiTM Segamat

Statistics ASEAN Run 2017 (21/10/2017) at Putrajaya Corporation

So my mid semester break already come to an end. Time is so rude for running out fast. Even though i know that time and tide wait for no man (or woman, indeed). But at least let me breathe or give me another week or two to sleep and rest (?) I don't even remember the last time i get a decent sleep in my life tbh. Ugh. Okay i'm talking crap rn. Cause i just woke up in the morning, feel tired and decided to blog first. Who's to blame now?

So far, my mid semester break was kinda productive. Except for the fact that i miss one hiking activity with my sister and cousins because i was too lazy to wake my ass up from the bed that morning. And needless to mention, i got sudden acne breakout on my face on that particular morning. Like, the previous days before, i glance in the mirror and proudly notice that my skin is close to clear. But then i went to Segamat, the weather was scorching hot, and of course i take the blame for not washing my face with all my heart on the night before, and boom! Acne. It's frustrating, to say the least. Thankfully, my skin is okay now. Only there's still one acne under my nose that i know will result to scar later on. Oh lord, please listen to my plea. Grant me that clear skin i have desired for a long. Amen!

Back to the reason why i'm here; MY BESTFRIEND AND MY LITTLE SISTER ARE FINALLY GRADUATED! Out of frying pan and into the fire gals! I'm such a proud sister to both. UiTM has moulded them very well. To those with narrow minded views who still believe that UiTM is not a good alma mater, i bet you never see how good our students and alumni are doing inside and outside the country. And i bet you never met my bestfriend and my sister as well. Ha! To my bestfriend, Sarah Yazmin and my blood sister, Syaqirin Norazizi, throw those mortarboard higher the next time once you guys have completed your Master and Degree. And then reach the sky. Your potentials are endless. My prayers are always with you two. May Allah bless always. Much love. 

Oh, i also joined a 3km marathon last Saturday. It was fun. My first ever marathon i guess. Nevertheless, since my legs don't remember the last time we run that far. I bet it was during my PLKN which was 6 years ago. So yeah, i'm having running pain on my upper legs right now. I know this pain will last up to 2 or maybe 3 days cause i've been in this situation too many times before. And please don't remind me about how piece of cake 3km marathon was. Cause it's not that i didn't acknowledge the fact that other people are doing 10km up to 20km marathon but hello, other people may say, better to be sore than sorry. But since i'm not like other people, i feel sorry for myself because of this sore legs that result from the "only" 3km marathon. Cause i always deserved so much better. Lol. Why do i sound like a pettifogger?

And just like that, it's already Monday. End of my 1 week holiday, and i got tons of workload waiting for me to finish them. I really just can't wait to finish this semester. But i don't want to nag around about how hard and how stressful my master studies or whatever. Because in all honestly, everyone is struggling. Let's pray for the best. Eventually, this too shall pass. Amen!