My Wan (read: grandmother), Hajah Siti Rafeah Haji Abu, passed away peacefully and painlessly on 31st December 2017 (Al Fatihah). I started my 2018 with no Wan nor Atok from both side of parents no more. A week before my Wan passed away, me, my sister and my mom went to visit her on a Saturday evening. She was quite not really like her on that day cause normally she will talk a lot, eating and all. My Makbik (my dad's sister; the one who live under the same roof with Wan) told us that Wan was not really well and might need to go to the hospital but as long as her health is still under control, then there's no need to rush there. We visited Wan and had some chat with Makbik until about 10pm before we go back home.
Next morning around 5am, my mom woke us up telling that Wan was already at the hospital at the red zone. We rushed to the hospital but Alhamdulillah, Wan was not that critical. Wan was warded at the same hospital that my Tok Long admitted after he coma from motorcycles accident literally two weeks before Wan was admitted as well. So we literally going up and downstairs to visit Tok Long and accompanying Wan at the same time. The next week, Makbik told us to come to Seremban and visit Wan since Wan's condition was not stable. On the 31st December evening, we visited Wan and Tok Long until dawn. Wan was somehow okay, so we decided to rush back to Shah Alam because my sister was having her final exams and i need to complete my dissertation proposal. Shockingly, while we were just at Putrajaya, on our way back to Shah Alam, we got news from the family Whatsapp group saying that Wan has passed away. Me and my sister both literally were surreal blur for a moment. Because Wan was all fine before we left. But it is what it is. Who are we to question? Just like that, Wan is no longer with us. Al Fatihah.
The following week, on 7th January, our Tok Long passed away. There goes my first two weeks of 2018. Surely, Allah is the Best of planners. However, i was extraordinarily fortunate to have had a close relationship with my Wan and Tok Long my entire life and to have had the opportunity to be with both of them for few days before they passed away. Alhamdulillah and Al Fatihah to my Wan and Tok Long. They both will forever be in my heart.
I presented my proposal two days after my Tok Long passed away. I didn't attend the tahlil because me and my sister went back to Shah Alam right after the burial. Alhamdulillah my proposal presentation went well. Only minor correction instead of major correction. But still, a lot of corrections. This 19th January is the last date to submit the corrections. And i'll be going home for my final semester break until 4th March insyaAllah.
I know that this semester break will pass me in a flash. By the time my final semester begins this March, i need to pump up for me to graduate on time, to secure my dream job and to glow up eventually. Amin YRA! Sounds like only simple three missions for 2018, but i swear it is going to takes everything on earth for me to achieve all three. With all the lessons that previous years equipped me with, i know for sure 2018 will see a better me. I'm ready for every single thing that 2018 has in store for me. And i'll be ready to work harder than i've ever worked in my life. Run like the wind, Bullseye!
P/S: It's actually January 2018. But i typed January 2017 on my proposal. Why i just realized it now? What even? Smh.
