July 31, 2018

ANOTHER GOODBYE AND HELLO

 
Been studying together since 2011 until 2018. 7 years is not a short period of time. We've come so far. Can't believe we are all grown ups now. Alhamdulillah for the friendship. 

The view from my unit at Kristal View Apartment. I lived here for one and a half year. I swear i'm gonna miss this.

So 25th July was the day when Sarah and Anis submitted their hard bound theses to the faculty and mark the end of their Master journey. During the final night before Anis went back to Melaka for good, we had our dinner together near Sarah's place in Shah Alam. It was obviously not the last dinner for us since we are sure going to meet again in the future. So we were just chilling and laughing together while spending the night. 

The next day, i was out to work at 7.30am as usual. The only thing that unusual was, that was the last morning i'm going to say bye to Anis. It was so sad knowing that the moment i came back, Anis will longer be at home. We didn't cry to each other but the moment i hoped in my car, i cried to myself. I almost get off my car and go back to see Anis and cry together. Almost! But it'll be so dramatic that i know it'll just make me feel funny and might be one of our source of laughter in the future hahaha so yeah, thank god i didn't. Phew too much emotions in a day.

And so that was my last days at Kristal View as well. I moved out on the weekend, Sunday 29th, to my new place to stay. My sister helped me to carry all of the stuff as usual like, who else? My new temporary home is as nice as i expect it to be. What else really matter than a nice place to call home right?

I was and am blessed with nice, comfortable rental house ever since my first rental experience during my Diploma which at Taman Saujana Heights, Lendu. My bff, Sarah 'proposed' me and Paah to rent with her, Maryam and Fatin. It was only five of us in a house that can fit idk like 7-8 people for a normal rental house (?) Haha. The rental rate was just RM120 per month including everything. Good old time. I still remember when my late grandma was so relieved seeing the house knowing that i don't live in any creepy or terrifying house far from home. I still remember her face when she said "Alhamdulillah, ok rumah kakak" until this very moment (Al Fatihah to my Uwan Rapisah).

Years later, during my Degree studies, i rented at Taman Seremban 3. The rental rate was RM200 per month including everything as well. A brand new double storey house. Everything was literally so new and modern including the UiTM Seremban 3 campus itself. Fancy! We were the first tenants ever. There were 13 of us. Close to each other than any other 13 girls would ever be. I miss every one of them.

While at Shah Alam, Teho, Anis and i went out together for a day to find a house for the semesters. Well obviously we didn't know about iBilik, trovit and all yet at that time lol so last year. There was this one place recommended by a friend but it was rooms at the shop lots. Which me and Teho didn't agreed much because we don't want to just park our car here and there at the shop lots. Then we literally went to so many places near Seksyen 7 Shah Alam but no house really fit for us three. And suddenly Anis found a Facebook ads about the Kristal View Apartment. And the rest is history. The rental rate was RM220 per month not including the utilities. Roughly i paid around RM260 - RM280 overall per month. The least star awarded among all of the other houses hahaha. But still, it's a nice place to stay especially for more than a year.

For my current place which i've only and already stayed for one night so far lol. It's a room chosen among all of the choices that i've surveyed for the past months. This is the best (i hope) i can get for myself. And by the best, it's including the rental rate, the environment and whatnot. Every aspects is already taken into account. The rental rate here is RM600 per month. Fully furnished including the utilities and wifi. Additional RM100 for the monthly parking lot since i live in a condominium, therefore, parking lot is virtue. So the rental rate per month is RM700. I know it may be too much for a room for one person but this place is near Dutamas / Mont Kiara. I mean, what do we expect? I did found a RM350 room but a room that's more like a dorm that fits 4-6 people in one room. I mean, i'd rather pay more for my serenity than paying less but deal with so many people in one room and ugh! I swear this room is the cheapest among the non-cheaps. I also did found a nice room that cost RM500 per month. But the house is a mixed gender house (?) Which they are girls and boys staying in the same house, only different rooms. Crazy! I never thought that it was even real actually. 

I really hope that everything goes well here just like the previous ones. I know, every place has its pros and cons. There are even no two days alike. But as always, let's pray for the best. May Allah protect us all from everything and anything that has the potential to harm us in this life and the afterlife. Ameen!

I'm just gonna leave it here in so that in the future i can look back and like, "Oh, good old time, i remember how alone i am back then in that room" Lol. Oh, my boss, once told me; Never look at the unseen walls especially while facing difficulties because it will just anchor us down. Powerful advice i must say.

July 18, 2018

BIG BUMMER BUT IT'S OKAY


It's the end of the final semester (well, supposedly). Everybody is inhaling their last deep breath only to let it out and feel relieved. The dissertations are finally presented and accepted. All that left to do is to pray for the other two final papers to pass with good marks. And then, yes, Master's Degree is done baby. Phew, what a (one and half) year!

Excruciatingly, it comes out that i need another one semester to finally get my Master's Degree. Yes you read it. I will not going to graduate my Master's Degree on time. It's because of my dissertation. I'm not going to spill it here on how it happened, why, when or whatever since i already talked and cried about it only about so many times. Sad is an understatement for this. I almost lost my sane somewhere in the flood of my imaginary and actual tears. But it is what it is. I believe that sometimes our best is just simply not enough. We have to do what is required. And what's required is, i'm not going to finish my studies on July 2018 but on January 2019 instead. 

Extending the semester is one of my worst nightmares that finally becoming a reality. I know this situation is actually common especially among postgraduate students but still, nobody ever wants to fail a paper, not graduate on time, extending the semester and whatnots. Tbh, i already see this coming since around Ramadhan after such issues. But at that moment, i was still trying and hoping for the best. But then, yeah, never mind. It's done anyway.


Aside from that, since i am still welcoming myself to the world of minimum wage and started doing my full time job today at Mont Kiara (i have been working here since March but on part time basis), as a consequence, i already rented a place to stay for the next year or two or idk. It's a nice small room for one at a condominium near my workplace. Well, i'm not going to state the exact location here for i might have a creepy stalker (as if there's even one). But still lol. 

Anyway, isn't the room nice and comfy? This is the first look of the room i captured when i first came to see the place. Of course it will be differ once i moved in since i might exchange with better pillows, change the bed sheets or whatever that will do. Hehe. The place was already furnished with literally everything. So i just need to bring my stuff to move in. I absolutely going to spend most of my time with only me. So my sister, my bestfriend and AE will be the ultimate victims to my random, lonely thoughts. I hope they are mentally prepared for this. Haha!

 Consequently, i'm going to spend most of my time at Mont Kiara starting from now on and am going to go back and forth from Mont Kiara to UiTM Shah Alam to complete my dissertation next semester. I really hope that i pass the other two papers for this semester (Amin!) so that i can only focus on my dissertation and my full time job onwards. I know it's not going to be easy but may Allah ease this journey. 

There's a lot in my head on what to do, this and that. But i believe in doing one thing at a time. I didn't graduate my Master's Degree right on time because Allah has a better plan for me. I am already blessed with so many great things in life. Well, it's easy to pretend to be fine on the outside. But hell not on the inside cause i'm still trying to convince myself until today that it is okay not to be okay. But knowing myself, nah never mind. I'm sure going to be fine eventually. No point dwelling so let's move forward.