It's the end of the final semester (well, supposedly). Everybody is inhaling their last deep breath only to let it out and feel relieved. The dissertations are finally presented and accepted. All that left to do is to pray for the other two final papers to pass with good marks. And then, yes, Master's Degree is done baby. Phew, what a (one and half) year!
Excruciatingly, it comes out that i need another one semester to finally get my Master's Degree. Yes you read it. I will not going to graduate my Master's Degree on time. It's because of my dissertation. I'm not going to spill it here on how it happened, why, when or whatever since i already talked and cried about it only about so many times. Sad is an understatement for this. I almost lost my sane somewhere in the flood of my imaginary and actual tears. But it is what it is. I believe that sometimes our best is just simply not enough. We have to do what is required. And what's required is, i'm not going to finish my studies on July 2018 but on January 2019 instead.
Extending the semester is one of my worst nightmares that finally becoming a reality. I know this situation is actually common especially among postgraduate students but still, nobody ever wants to fail a paper, not graduate on time, extending the semester and whatnots. Tbh, i already see this coming since around Ramadhan after such issues. But at that moment, i was still trying and hoping for the best. But then, yeah, never mind. It's done anyway.
Aside from that, since i am still welcoming myself to the world of minimum wage and started doing my full time job today at Mont Kiara (i have been working here since March but on part time basis), as a consequence, i already rented a place to stay for the next year or two or idk. It's a nice small room for one at a condominium near my workplace. Well, i'm not going to state the exact location here for i might have a creepy stalker (as if there's even one). But still lol.
Anyway, isn't the room nice and comfy? This is the first look of the room i captured when i first came to see the place. Of course it will be differ once i moved in since i might exchange with better pillows, change the bed sheets or whatever that will do. Hehe. The place was already furnished with literally everything. So i just need to bring my stuff to move in. I absolutely going to spend most of my time with only me. So my sister, my bestfriend and AE will be the ultimate victims to my random, lonely thoughts. I hope they are mentally prepared for this. Haha!
Consequently, i'm going to spend most of my time at Mont Kiara starting from now on and am going to go back and forth from Mont Kiara to UiTM Shah Alam to complete my dissertation next semester. I really hope that i pass the other two papers for this semester (Amin!) so that i can only focus on my dissertation and my full time job onwards. I know it's not going to be easy but may Allah ease this journey.
There's a lot in my head on what to do, this and that. But i believe in doing one thing at a time. I didn't graduate my Master's Degree right on time because Allah has a better plan for me. I am already blessed with so many great things in life. Well, it's easy to pretend to be fine on the outside. But hell not on the inside cause i'm still trying to convince myself until today that it is okay not to be okay. But knowing myself, nah never mind. I'm sure going to be fine eventually. No point dwelling so let's move forward.
