It's mid January already, Aqisya will be 3 months old on this 17th January. So yeah, it marks the end of my 90 days maternity leave. I'll be back on my feet to start my working life again next Wednesday. Of course, there are ton of emotions that come along with the end of this maternity leave especially when my priorities has shifted and the perspective on everything also changed. I'm also definitely harrowed by it (most probably because of the postpartum emotions: lack of sleeps, hormonal changes and etc).
We already sending Aqisya to the nursery starting this new year so that she and I can get a smooth transition of the upcoming situation. She needs to learn it as early as 2 months that her mother will not going to be with her 24/7 once her mother is back to work. And she also needs to be okay with it. Alhamdulillah Aqisya is all okay with everything. She is such a healthy, easy and happy baby. She gives me no worries and somehow like saying to me like, ''it's okay mommy, you can go to work and please earn more money for me''. Haha.
Well, to be frank, it's not her that i am most worried about. I know she is a strong girl and she will get through anything. It's actually my working culture. I'm working at a place where we have ton of never-ending workloads that we have to give our full commitments to get the work done. It's always about time constraint that we can never afford to waste any. Teamwork is also very important at my place. Like, we are just very very productive haha. Well, it's good to be busy rather than wasting all of our time during the office hours pretending to be fruitful and it's great to be somehow an important person in an organization but sometimes i envy those who don't have that much of work but still getting paid fairly. Haha k k k.
After all, i pray that this transition from my 3 months maternity leave to going back being a brand new working mom will be as smooth as possible. I thank God that my Director since the previous one to this current one are someone who always understand their staff well and not that kind of lunatic boss who we can just simply be stressful about. They can differentiate well from work and personal situation. And yes, having the boss' support can really make a huge difference. I also know it well that i need to set boundaries as early from day 1 back to work with my coworkers to set expectations.
It's not that i'm trying to get away all the time by using the i'm-a-mom ticket but i really pray that my coworkers and everybody can understand especially that i'm still not living under the same roof with my husband since he is still working at Melaka and her we are in Putrajaya. I may somehow be exaggerating but yeah, during the weekdays, i am a ''single mother'' because my husband is only here during the weekends. So, yeah. Haha.
But, to my coworkers, there's no need to worry though. It's just that the way i used to work may no longer work for me from now on because my priorities has shifted. But i know my responsibilities. Work is still work. It will still be done in one way or another but not with me being in the office until the after office hours or late night anymore. Hehe. Because i have Aqisya now and she needs me and i need her even more even during the weekdays. And i will be there and fight for her whenever, wherever. Period.
Going back to work after maternity leave is indeed challenging. I mean, i'm still at home today with my baby but my heart is already feels so heavy hahaha. But hey, for many, it does get better right? And i suppose too. May Allah ease Afiqah Norazizi's working mom journey, may her boss and her coworkers are always as understanding as ever and may Aqisya always be in the pink of health so that she can always be mommy's and daddy's healthy, easy and happy baby. InsyaAllah. Amin YRA.
