THE KIND OF FLAWLESS I WISH I COULD BE

This is so random but i guess most (or maybe some) of my friends especially those on social media already knew that i'm a big fan of Taylor Swift. Idk why but i literally love everything about her. I started to like her so much since the 1989 album. I memorize all of the songs from 1989 and i'm still listening to them until now.

I know she got a long list of ex lovers and her blank spaces left may not be as many as ours (lol), but doesn't that means that she had already achieved so much in her life as such age? And she is just 29 years old (?) I don't want to point the spotlight at her love life, but her achievements in life. I know there are so many better role models under the sun and i don't care if the media consistently broadcast to the world about how manipulative Taylor Swift is, or how sarcastic she is through her songs, yada yada, i'm still gonna love her until whenever.

Seriously though, if you really think that Taylor Swift is not talented at all, you gotta watch the video above. I swear she is so good with words. She wrote most of her songs by herself. Her career is defined by her own efforts. She would not come this far if she's just waiting at the corner for any other people to write or compose songs for her. I mean, isn't that inspiring enough? Well, call me bias, but most of her song lyrics mirror so much of what's going on in my life now and then. That's the beauty of her music i guess. It can apply to so many different people all over the world and yet still feel as if it were written just for you. Maybe that's one of the major reason why i love her. Taylor certainly gotten where she needed to go but i believe that's not for lack of a lot of effort. She has been working practically her whole life persistently that i find it pretty darn inspiring. Sometimes i wonder if she ever sleep. 

And while i look up at such person, i realized of how small and how nobody i am in this big, never-slowing-down world. Honestly i have so many fears and insecurities in life, like way a lot that one can imagine. Some people may see me as fearless, goal oriented gal (because that's what i want, what i convince myself to be and my poker game somehow sometimes strong enough) but they have no idea how terrified, how clueless i am on the inside.

True enough, it's end of March already, and i'm still doing data cleaning for my Master's dissertation while some of my friends already run their data whatsoever and it's beyond sickening for me. I hate how slow i am at some things. And sometimes i feel like choking myself to death so that i can end this soon enough. I can't believe that dissertation can be such a grade A pain in my life. Can i just get my Master's Degree without doing my dissertation? Can i? No? Maybe? Fine, i know the only way out is through *cries blood tears*.

And as always, this too shall pass. I've been in this drowning situation many time before but i survived everytime (Alhamdulillah). And i will do it again and again. InsyaAllah. Another 4 months of do or die. Oh Lord, please let Afiqah Norazizi survive this time around. Amin!

"I think fearless is having fears but jumping anyway" - Taylor Swift

WHILE ON THE CONTRARY,

And she made it anyway.

OLABOLA THE MUSICAL

WE FINALLY WENT TO OUR FIRST EVER OFFICIAL THEATRE! 

Well, this was literally our second theatre. The first one was Gadis Jalan Burmah, a story by Redza Minhat. But it was an independent theatre managed by few awesome people with high imagination in story telling that move others.

Tbh, i'm always thankful for twisted fate, cancelled plans, because it always, always lead to a better ending. Me and my sister were actually planning to go to Port Dickson to swim at the beach before we end our semester break because last time we went to Langkawi, we didn't bring our swimming suits. But my parents didn't allow us since there'll be only two of us. My parents actually never really allow us to do any outdoor activities related to nature such as hiking, going to the beach or waterfall, jungle trekking, etc unless if we have better reasons to go or our male cousins, any relatives that 'expert' in that particular activity are with us. Yeah, that's just our parents.

But again, thank God for that, we ended up with OlaBola The Musical! The moment my parents forbid us, I scrolled into my Instagram and saw Iedil Putra's post about OlaBola. I did saw Iedil's posts, spamming a lot about OlaBola before but i never really pay my attention to the posts. 

I know that my parents will always approve this kind of 'activity' (as long as we pay everything with our own pocket money and never asked for extras), so, without any hesitation, i clicked the website for the online tickets. The most expensive price for the ticket with the best view from seat was RM386 and the cheapest price with the most tak-best and tak-nampak-stage seat position was RM58.

We were at the very front row at Upper Circle L1. The ticket was RM113 each. I swear guys, if you are going to theatre and choosing Upper Circle (because Upper Circle is the cheapest among all), please MAKE SURE that you select the very front row as your seat. Because even the second rows can't view all of the performance. No kidding. And if anyone ever asked my opinion, which i know there's no one but i'm gonna spill it anyway (lol), the best views for Istana Budaya is from all the Stall seats, while for the Grand Circle, i only prefer seats at L1, L2, C1, C2, R1 and R2. And for the Upper Circle, only the front-est rows of L1, C1 and R1. Whereas for the rest, you will only waste your money and worse is, you didn't get the same excitement as others. Just my 2 cents. 

Overall, OlaBola The Musical was beyond my expectation. I never watched the movie before. So i was like a 100% first timer. First time theatregoer and first time knowing the story behind the title OlaBola. They claimed that OlaBola The Musical is the biggest show of 2018. And guess what? They are all right! A #LuarBiasa theatrical experience, indeed! I enjoyed every second of the show. It was splendidly... Arghh! I got no word left to describe!

The best part was, i met all of the casts, the ensembles and the director of OlaBola The Musical, Tiara Jacquelina. I already uploaded all of the photos on my Instagram and Instagram Stories (highlighted!). My mind was literally blown away by everything on that night. 

I considered myself as lucky to be part (even as an audience) of this great story about togetherness that touches the hearts of people. I really wish that i can watch it for the second or third time to feast my eyes. But i can't afford more than 1 ticket at this moment. Lol. Also because of time constraint. However, this is still one of the best experience in my life so far. Thanks to the team. And cheers to more great experiences in the future. If Allah wills.