This is so random but i guess most (or maybe some) of my friends especially those on social media already knew that i'm a big fan of Taylor Swift. Idk why but i literally love everything about her. I started to like her so much since the 1989 album. I memorize all of the songs from 1989 and i'm still listening to them until now.
I know she got a long list of ex lovers and her blank spaces left may not be as many as ours (lol), but doesn't that means that she had already achieved so much in her life as such age? And she is just 29 years old (?) I don't want to point the spotlight at her love life, but her achievements in life. I know there are so many better role models under the sun and i don't care if the media consistently broadcast to the world about how manipulative Taylor Swift is, or how sarcastic she is through her songs, yada yada, i'm still gonna love her until whenever.
Seriously though, if you really think that Taylor Swift is not talented at all, you gotta watch the video above. I swear she is so good with words. She wrote most of her songs by herself. Her career is defined by her own efforts. She would not come this far if she's just waiting at the corner for any other people to write or compose songs for her. I mean, isn't that inspiring enough? Well, call me bias, but most of her song lyrics mirror so much of what's going on in my life now and then. That's the beauty of her music i guess. It can apply to so many different people all over the world and yet still feel as if it were written just for you. Maybe that's one of the major reason why i love her. Taylor certainly gotten where she needed to go but i believe that's not for lack of a lot of effort. She has been working practically her whole life persistently that i find it pretty darn inspiring. Sometimes i wonder if she ever sleep.
And while i look up at such person, i realized of how small and how nobody i am in this big, never-slowing-down world. Honestly i have so many fears and insecurities in life, like way a lot that one can imagine. Some people may see me as fearless, goal oriented gal (because that's what i want, what i convince myself to be and my poker game somehow sometimes strong enough) but they have no idea how terrified, how clueless i am on the inside.
True enough, it's end of March already, and i'm still doing data cleaning for my Master's dissertation while some of my friends already run their data whatsoever and it's beyond sickening for me. I hate how slow i am at some things. And sometimes i feel like choking myself to death so that i can end this soon enough. I can't believe that dissertation can be such a grade A pain in my life. Can i just get my Master's Degree without doing my dissertation? Can i? No? Maybe? Fine, i know the only way out is through *cries blood tears*.
And as always, this too shall pass. I've been in this drowning situation many time before but i survived everytime (Alhamdulillah). And i will do it again and again. InsyaAllah. Another 4 months of do or die. Oh Lord, please let Afiqah Norazizi survive this time around. Amin!
"I think fearless is having fears but jumping anyway" - Taylor Swift
