I was bored the other day so i viewed my own Instagram highlights to see all the foods that were already in my tummy and already digested out (lol). Hence, this grid photos. I am blessed to be able to eat almost anything and not so picky (at all) about food. And i am also blessed with a sister that literally has the same taste of food with me. We spent (and will spend) lots of our time with foods and for foods. The reason why i have more than 100 photos in my Instagram highlight: Makan. More to come obviously. Because i always take my moment to Instagram my good food. Hahaha.
Believe it or not, i never really waste my foods. I eat everything on my plate especially when i know that i pay a lot for that one. Even when i am at the restaurant and i can't finish my food, if the food is okay to be kept for hours, then i will asked the waiter to help me tapau. I used to fell ashamed to the public when it comes to tapau, especially when i am at a fancy restaurant. But as i get older, i am like, "hey, i pay for this food, with my own money, if i want to tapau or whatever, it is up to me". Plus to whom should i be embarrassed to right? In the end, everybody is just minding their own business. You want to tapau? Good for you. You don't want to tapau? That's fine too.
But tbh, it makes me mad and sad at the same time of how people buy a crazy amount of foods in a plate only to waste them few minutes later. To me, if you know you can't finish the food, then only buy sufficient amount that fits your appetite. Simple as that. I mean, think of all of the people that are starving everyday because they don't have food supply at their place, and here you are, wasting all of the foods on daily basis with no sense of guilt. Membazir itu amalan syaitan.
Talking about my love for food, i would also like to make a confession that i gained about 10kg since the past few months. And my current BMI telling me that i am now overweight. This is crazy. I am crazy. But i just don't know and i don't have that much motivation to lose weight at this moment. My only motivation at this time is, my bff in getting married in few months so i need to be in shape. But on the other hand, i am still having that mindset of "oh okay, i still got few months left". Eff.
Most of my relatives and my friends already noticed of me expanding my territory (lol) and they remind me about that almost every time. By now, i just don't know how to feel about it anymore. Haha. But in the end, i do appreciate their concerns because being overweight is never okay for our health either. Especially for the long term. I mean, it is not only because of vanity.
Stuck between wanting to lose weight and don't want to look back and think "i could've eaten that" has always been my number 1 problem since forever. But one thing for sure, i hate being fat because it makes me feel insecure like crazy. I hate when all of my good clothes can't fit me anymore that i have to buy new ones. I am not happy when people remind me of how fat i have become every time they see me. But in the end, i am well aware that this happens because of me. I did this to myself. It is me who breakfast like a king, lunch a king and also dinner like a king hahaha. So yeah, it is up to me either i want to be fat and feel fat forever or shed some weight, be normal and be happier with one less problem in life.
So yeah, diet starts tomorrow! Okay not really tomorrow. But tomorrow. Ykwim? K. Oh btw, this Monday i will be at Perak for a training program for few months. I will blog about it later on. Alhamdulillah for all the blessings, Alhamdulillah for all the good food, Alhamdulillah for i am still healthy, Alhamdullillah for good friends and family and above all, Alhamdulillah for everything.
