I swear this video is worth every second. Watch it!
I blew out my 25 candles just a week ago. While i did so genuinely loving my life more than ever, i realized now is the phase where most of my friends, cousins that share the same age with me are getting married or at least getting engaged. And everybody will be like "Kau bila lagi?" "Takkan boyfriend pun tak ada?" "Tak ada boyfriend? Tak payah nak bohong" "Adik kahwin dulu kot?" etc etc. And whatever answer given, the response is always 99% predictable.
Call me whatever, but i've decided to bite the bullet and blog about being single.
So let's be clear - Yes, i am single (*at this moment*). The i-don't-have-a-boyfriend, the no-i'm-not-expecting-anyone-trust-me-i'm-single-why-sometimes-people-don't-trust-me-ugh, the don't-make-me-sign-up-for-Tinder, the aku-rasa-kau-kahwin-dulu; kind of single. I used to tweet almost (maybe) a lot about how good i feel about being single. Because really, i did and i do feel good. I enjoy my own company and always need time on my own to stay sane.
But suddenly the paranoia kicks in. What if people misinterpreted it as me actually being sad behind the screen? And blergh, preaching about how good you feel because you are single? Man, that's pathetic. Lololol!
But guess what, at the end of the day, i realized that i don't care about how other people gather their information through what they see or what they think of me. Because i'm only responsible for what i say, what i believe of myself, not for what other people understand. I mean, if people who are in a relationship can proudly showing off to the world about how happy they are with their relationship all day long, why suddenly it seems as if it is not right when single persons do the same thing about his/her own company? This is a totally double standard like seriously. It's about time for people to stop labelling someone talked about being single as defensive, whiny, bitter or even hopeless (?)
Actually, when you are not in a relationship, you have a lot of time to watch others' relationships. Observing and thinking of how right and how wrong the relationships could go. Led me to agreeing to the video i attached above. I mean, it's kind of hard not to. Granted, the nature of those thoughts have evolved and i would say that i improved in the last years of singleness. I believe that being single at 18 is very different from being single at 25, at 35. And i have no doubt it will continue to be beyond.
I love being single. I can do whatever i want any day, any night. They have been full of risks taken and rich experiences. But it doesn't mean that i want to be single for the rest of my life. I believe that 25 is not a buckle-up-you-need-to-speed-up age yet. I believe that i don't need to lower my bar just because of other people's timelines. I believe i still got plenty of time to choose who i want to spend the rest of my life with. I also believe that there's still time i'll be discovered by the right person at the right moment. In the meantime, there's a lot more to life than this. And for that, i give some serious thanks. Life is good. It really is.
