August 6, 2018

50 FACTS ABOUT ME

This entry is literally inspired by Athisha Khan's YouTube video. I was at the office and let the YouTube videos continue to play by themselves and i stuck at Athisha's 50 Facts About Me video and like, yeah i should list mine on my blog too. Hehe.

Tiny Disclaimer: This is not a 20-minute-usual-post because it actually take days to list 50 Facts About Me. I keep reverting this post to draft until the list reached 50. I feel like i'm also learning myself at the same time cause sometimes, i don't even know myself. Lol and this is a long post, i suppose. So let's begin!


1. I grew up and raised at a kampung named Kampung Seliau in Negeri Sembilan (i still live here until forever). I get my first education here. My kindergarten and primary school are both at Seliau. I love how i am purely from kampung but at the same time, i also know how to blend in with the so called city culture. Like, technically i can easily switch my personality from a ruralite to urbanite and vice versa. I consider it as a bonus because i believe that not everyone can handle the kampung life (for real tho). One thing for sure, you can take me out of the kampung, but you can't take kampung out of me.

2. I am only 154cm tall (short) which is equivalent to 5'1". I am short but not that short. Also fat but not that fat. Please don't ask my weight. My current weight bothers me so much. It's too heavy to ... whatever.

3. I learned and know 5 languages; Malay, English, Mandarin, Japanese and Nogori. Hahaha (what even). I speak fluent Malay and Nogori. I don't speak fluent English but i can communicate well in English. I can write and text in English super fast. I talk to myself in English. My random thoughts are in English. My English accent on my mind is super cool but when i let it out verbally, it's ugly and awkward af. Guess i need more practice or maybe it's just my voice. I learned Mandarin during my Degree studies. And i learned Japanese for 4 years during high school. Kindly please don't ask me or speak Mandarin and Japanese with me. Because i don't remember the languages much and at all. Lol. But i do claim them in my resume because why not? Hahaha elementary level of course.

4. My fat rolls are everywhere from top to toe. I hope i can get rid of them at least before my wedding day. I need to make sure that i'm happy with my wedding photos #prayforafiqahnorazizi

5. I have many nicknames ever since primary school. During primary school, one of my friends called me Kepala Penyapu. I don't even know why. My high school name is Peaqox. That's the name that my high school friends will address me until forever. Most of Diploma friends (and family) called me Piqah. And during my Degree studies, my housemates called me Mummy for some reasons. Some of my friends never really called me by my real name that when they called me by my name, i never respond to them. It's just so weird. Haha. But tbh, i like to be called Fiqah instead of Piqah.

6. I have no problem on being single. It feels good to be single (i blogged about this before: Click here). But when i'm in love, oh darling, i'm all in heart and soul. And yes, loyalty is major for me.

7. I have only one sibling, my little sister. But she is not so little anymore. She looks like a bigger sister next to me. I'm simply grateful of her existence. I wouldn't trade her for the world even though sometimes i feel like killing her.

8. I don't drink milk, i don't eat cheesecake and my least favorite meat is lamb.

9. I like lyrics, singers, blogs, bloggers, poetry, poets. These are people that make words carry the world within them.

10. I'm not afraid of heights. I would like to ride on all of the roller coasters in the world and do everything related to heights. The higher the better. Try me.

11. I don't like people who try so hard just to fit in the society especially in the wrong way. For example, "Oh all socialites drink liquor, clubbing and eat pork. So i'm gonna do the same things and post it on social media as well. Damn i'm cool af". Like, honey, stop making fetch happen. It's not going to happen! Please, never forget our root. You are who you are.

12. I always expect for the best and the worst to happen. A realist all the way.

13. I have the weirdest, funniest voice. I kinda not like my own voice.

14. Although I have a lot of acquaintances, my real-deal circle of friends is actually very small.

15. There's no such thing as coffee or tea to me. I drink both. Anytime anywhere.

16. I love animals intensely and believe strongly in animal rights. We are the voice to the voiceless. Save the animals! Love and protect them at all cost!

17. I've never forgotten those who were close to me. Even those that opted against our friendship. I'm sure i no longer occupy a room in their mind and heart. Yet in mine, they'll always find a place.

18. Sometimes, politics frustate me beyond belief. And i'm not sure whether politics or the people that frustate me more.

19. It took me three times to pass Inferential Statistics during my Degree studies (used to be my biggest secret but not anymore since it's already in the past). It's the only subject that i've ever failed in my whole life. And i failed the paper twice! I get frustated just by thinking about it. But Alhamdulillah i passed the Advanced Inferential Statistics during my Master studies in one go.

20. I am a really bad procrastinator. 7 out of 10 of my assignments were finished a day before they were due. If that!

21. I am a fast texter and always feel embarrassed (and sometimes mad) when i reply in a millisecond while other people take forever.

22. I never experienced scholarships or any loan (educational loan to be exact) in my life. My only financial source is my family. My first ever allowance that is not from my family was my intern allowance. I'm still going to get my allowance from my parents until this September. Call me spoiled or sheltered if you like. But brb, getting ready for October onwards.

23. I used to bite my nails (i still do). Unless if i have henna on or after i polish them.

24. I don't like coke, soda or any carbonated drinks. I can drink them when there's no other choice. But they will never be my first option.

25.  I’m still single.

26. For a short while, I really wanted to be a stewardess. But it was not my calling.

27.  I can tolerate grammatical errors but it bothers me when i see words with incorrect usage of uppercase and lowercase.

28. I've never had my wisdom teeth removed yet. Maybe because they still haven't come in. Idk.

29. I used to play volleyball, netball and handball in school.

30. I have both B2 and D license. I first learned to ride and drive when i was still in primary school. Thanks to my late grandma. She is the one who taught me. She even once went to a roller coaster ride with me and my sister at Genting Highlands. I swear our parents will never go on a roller coaster ride with us like ever. My grandmother was way too cool. Al Fatihah to her.

31. My phone is in my hand 24/7. Unless when it's not.

32. Everything in my computer is perfectly organized in folders within folders within folders ... I also clear my browsing history and empty the recycle bin religiously. Same goes to my phone. Good riddance, no cache, all clear.

33. Sometimes, i overreact when there's no real reason. And sometimes, i may not react at all when there's a real reason to do so.

34. I have a quote / caption bank in my phone for my future reference.

35. I consider myself as a family oriented person. I love my family more than anything in the world. They are at the center of everything. It's sad for me how we got lost in our own schedules, more often than not, forgetting these precious beings. It's good to always reflect back and consider their feelings. No matter how far we go, never put our family behind us.

36. I used to have my own diary during high school. The most valuable one was the one when i was in Form 5. I still keep it until today. The diary was thick as a brick, hundreds pages long. Very dramatic but many pages were just left blank lol! Actually it was written for our English teacher, Sir Rashid. He insisted everybody to have a diary, wrote it in English (fully English) and submitted to him daily or at least twice a week. I remember his car was so full with students' diaries. Hahaha. He read the diaries only to check on the grammars and vocabularies, not the contents because he never commented on the contents unless when the student was depressed or gone through hell, he left with some advice to ponder. The funny thing is, during that time, everybody was reading each others' diaries like a magazine. No privacy at all. Hahaha. But thanks to Sir Rashid. I never really write before. And come out i really love the idea of diary and writing. One of the reason why i am still blogging.

37. "If i could turn back time" is the phrase that once in a while, echoes in my soul. There is this sadness that overtakes my being. I always wish that i could travel back in time and do many things differently than the ones i did. Especially with my late grandmother. And i am acutely aware of the fact that she's gone years and i find myself self-conscious about the fact that, despite this passage of time, despite all those years that have rolled by, i still feel a gap where she once was, which i can't quite find anything to fill. But at the same time, i also cannot go inside a black hole where time and space are said to change places. And yes. That's the thing about "life goes on". It does. It's just that you tend to still miss the life you once had. I just need the odd moan now and again to get me through.

38. I can't clarify whether i am high maintenance or not. Sometimes i am and sometimes i am not. From a scale of 1 to 10, i guess my high maintenance level is 7.

39. 40% morning person and 60% night owl. I can actually rock both.

40. I can't imagine my life without the internet. Life without the internet is pretty hard to fathom. We use it for virtually everything including to connecting with those around us. Even my mobile data is unlimited so that i can browse anything anywhere. Dear internet, never leave us. We love you.

41. I eat almost everything. I finish my plate every time. I hate those who waste their food purposely. Especially just because of crappy reasons. If you don't wanna eat it, don't take it, don't buy it. I mean, at the other side of the world, people are hungry to death. And here you are wasting your food on daily basis. Wow such balance Yin and Yang.

42. I can see ghosts when i was a kid. Like, legit. I had sixth sense. But the ability and the memory faded as i growing up. All gone now. My family told me that when i was in primary school, there's this one time when i hate going to school because i was seeing 'things'. One time i refused to eat because i saw 'them' at the canteen. I even claimed that i saw them here and there. Until some Ustaz(s) came to heal me. Crazy years back then. Haha. But i remember nothing now. And hell no i am not seeing ghosts on daily basis. Even though i'm afraid of people more than i'm afraid of ghost. But still, since i'm always by myself, let us not seeing each other, ghosts. Thank you.

43. I don't like dolls. I never play with dolls. I hate dolls. I like Barbie dolls but only on pictures. When i was a kid, i watched Chucky (Child's Play), the doll that comes alive and become a serial killer. It was so terrifying that i ended up believe that all dolls can come alive. Until today hahaha. Call me immature but i ain't taking no risk man. No dolls in my house. Ever! But i do like teddy bears and the other cute soft toys like penguins, chipmunks and all. It's just that, i can live without them. I don't need them. So yeah, i'm good.

44. I can nod off very quickly, sleep deeply, nap at any time and fall asleep anywhere. I have the ability to fall asleep within 5 seconds of laying down or close my eyes. I could fall asleep very easily and be snoring sometimes. Idk hahaha. It doesn't matter what the situation is. Working, vacation, super tired or not tired at all. I've done this my entire life and i have no idea. I need no sheep to count to sleep. And yeah, i don't have sleep disorder.

45. Call me old school, but i really value the three magic words; PLEASE, THANK YOU and I AM SORRY. I don't care who you are, what you do, whatsoever. These words are crucial in life. Say it out loud! Everytime!

46. I have Trypanophobia. Which is fear of needles or anything that involve with injections. I don't like injections. I hate injections. I never donate my blood because of this. I saw that people are so obsessed to have the fairest, pale skin that they willing to take the risky vitamin C injections, going under the knife and all like idk man. People are just out of their mind only for vanity. Like seriously in the end, nobody even cares.

47. I used to be so obsessed with lipsticks especially matte lip cream. One time i have about 50 matte lip creams with the same colours but different brands this and that. Until one day my heart decided that i don't like them anymore. And today i have only like 10 lipsticks but the most used ones are only 2.

48. I don't have that many clothes, scarves in my wardrobe. Thank god for the washing machine. I keep recycling the same outfit. I swear i wear every piece for million times until it worn out. I only shop when i feel like it. It can be like once a month or 100 times a month depending on my mood. I am not a shopaholic. I don't splurge much on clothes, handbags, makeups and all. But when i do, i splurge a lot. Hehe

49. I have no self control over food. I can say that i'm on diet for the month but already binge af on the first day. That's how critical my self control is. I want to change so bad but most of the time i just don't care. I think it's because of i'm still in my comfort zone of which i'm already fat but not really that fat. I don't exercise. It's funny how during high school i was kinda fit. I do push up everyday, running for miles, standing under the sun for 6 hours straight and all. But the moment i'm out, i don't even have a decent sport shoes. Lol. But i do have one now. One thing for sure, if anyone ever come to me telling how fat i am in a very annoying way, my only reply would be; "I can lose weight for free. You need about ten grand to fix your f***ing face. So Miley, what's good?"

50. I get annoyed very easily and on the other note, i am also easily amused. I too can be at the state of being simultaneously amused and annoyed. Very confusing, i know. But that's just me.

P/S: There are more to spill of course. But let's just stop here and thank you to those that read until the end.
Wow! I do feel like a widely open book by now hahaha.