August 30, 2018

THE INTERN AND THE CRAZY RICH ASIANS

 Jules: Also, if we got divorced, he'll remarry. Maybe not to this girl but someone. And we both know i am not easy. So i could be like, single forever which means that ... Forgive me, this does keep me up in the middle of the night. That I don't ...

Ben: What?

Jules: That i don't want to be buried alone. Paige will be with her husband and Matt will be with his new family and i will be buried with strangers. I'll be buried in the strangers singles section of the cemetery. Not that that is a reason to stay together but it's just, you know, a scary sidebar.

Ben: Let's take that one off your plate right now. You can be buried with me and Molly. I happen to have space, okay?

Jules: Oh thank you so much. I didn't think that i even hire you.



I can see me in Jules especially at the part when she said that she is not easy.

I am a sucker for movies about woman. I like stories about woman. Especially about friendship, woman with great career, strong woman, family and stuff. They feel close to my heart. That sometimes i can relate so much. And i like that.

When i first saw The Intern Movie on tv, i watched it because of Anne Hathaway. And because of the title itself. Which i was convinced that i will not going to waste my 2 hours watching some crappy movie. And i've experienced being an intern too, so yeah. At first i thought the movie was about an old man who is an intern that trapped into different kind of troubles because of the CEO. Almost exactly like The Devil Wears Prada. Only this time Anne Hathaway is the devil. To an old man. Not that evil kind of devil like come on, it's Anne Hathaway. But more to like a boss who doesn't care about her intern, giving him such works etc and then something happen, she regrets it later. Haha. But i was completely wrong. Totally.

One paragraph spoiler alert ...

 Long story short, it is a movie about a retiree, Ben who gets bored of retirement and finally become a senior intern at a fast-growing internet clothing company (almost exactly like FashionValet). The CEO and founder of the company, Jules is his boss (obviously). Jules is a career oriented woman who don't really has the time to pay attention at the senior intern. But somehow, they spend a lot of time working together and grow on each other. Jules has a child named Paige and a stay-at-home husband, Matt. Since she didn't have much balance between her career and family, and after she found out about her husband cheating on her (but she pretends like she didn't know about it). With a heavy heart, she finally decided to hire a new CEO to run her company hoping that everything will get better and at the same time, hoping that Matt will stop cheating on her.

I don't know about others but this movie works as a good exploration of purposes and relationships for me. My verdict on the movie is 8/10. Two lessons: One, different generations can learn from each other in all aspects. Two, what is important and what is priority is actually can be very different. I know most of us might already watched the movie because it's already on tv long time ago. But if you haven't and feel like watching a movie during your free time, you can count this movie in. I promise this one is a good one.

 Another spoiler alert (but just a bit hehe) ...

Actually i had the thought about The Intern movie after i watched Crazy Rich Asians on cinema the other day. The secondary heroin, Astrid, a (very) rich, faithful, loving wife married to a common people. Everything about her is perfect but unfortunately, her husband was having an affair behind her back. After she said that she actually knew about the affair, her husband acted out and wanted to leave because he doesn't feel like he fits in his wife's rich culture and whatnot and saying that as if it was Astrid's faults for making he feel that way. The most iconic moment was when Astrid told her husband that he can keep the apartment because she has 14 others to stay in. Her last word was; It's not my job to make you feel like a man. I can't make you something you are not. Damn!

 Especially if you are an Asian, please also watch this movie! All Asian casts. The main cast, Henry Golding was from Malaysia. They speak Singlish like come on, what is the difference between Singlish and Manglish? Can't tell. And it's a Hollywood movie guys. What even? The movie was about a strict, rich parent that disapproved her son's not-rich girlfriend and go watch the movie lah. The focus in this movie is not about swiping credit cards or crazy spending habits, but more than that. My verdict on the movie is 9/10.

P/S: Thank God for good movies that keep us alive.

August 27, 2018

BRUNEI SHORT TRIP


 I just have to pin this on the top of the post because i suddenly looked effortlessly kurus in this photo. I am way fatter irl but this photo is a blessing. Give a girl the right jeans and she can conquer the world (with her photos). Hehe. This was at Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin Mosque.


Top left to bottom right: Istana Nurul Iman, Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong, Kampong Ayer, Jerudong Crystal Arch.

Brunei was actually never really in our go-to list but since our Wan Cik (wife to Tok Cik, my late grandmother's younger brother) is from Brunei and she needs to go back to her hometown to renew her passport, license and everything. So we decided to tag along this time. Kak Lin and Wan Cik flew to Brunei on the 20th August but since my mom wants us to celebrate Aidiladha at home first, so we went to Brunei on the 2nd Aidiladha which on the 23rd August until the 25th.

The usual intention was to blog about my experience but since they are some of friends asking about the itinerary, budgets and stuff, so here are the details.

Our return tickets were around RM750+ per person (Royal Brunei and MAS). We converted a total of RM1800 for both of us which we got $602 ($301 for each of us). This amount was enough to pay the hotel, to buy our foods, souvenirs, this and that. We stayed at Kiulap Plaza Hotel that cost us $160 for two nights. We didn't spent any on transportation since Kak Lin was the one who took us places for free and fed us with factoids. Thank you Kak Lin! Hehe. So the itinerary:

Day 1:
Went to eat Roti Kahwin at Chop Jing Chew, Gadong
Sightseeing at Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin Mosque
Visiting Wan Cik's sister at Kampong Ayer
Dinner at a restaurant near the hotel
Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong for street foods and local fruits
Hua Ho Supermarket (next to the hotel) to buy chocolates, groceries that we can't get in Malaysia

Day 2:
Breakfast at the hotel
Thien Thien Restaurant, Gadong for Kolo Mee and Chicken Rice
Went to souvenir shop at Gadong
Sightseeing at Hutan Bukit Syahbandar, Universiti Brunei Darussalam, Jerudong Park and Istana Nurul Iman
Boat riding at Kampong Ayer, Sungai Kebun
Centrepoint Mall, Gadong to shop
Dim Sum at Gadong Properties Centre
Had our ambuyat dinner at Restoran Aminah Arif, Serusop

Day 3:
Breakfast at the hotel
Nasi Katok $1
Back to Malaysia

Overall, Brunei is not at all impressive at the first sight especially for us, Malaysians. It is not an exciting country to travel and does not try to be one. For such a loaded country, Brunei does not boast its wealth. Unlike Malaysia, Brunei does not have skyscrapers at all. Since it is a dry country, so alcohol is illegal to sell in Brunei (including cigarettes if i'm not mistaken). All shops, restaurants, supermarkets and etc are closed from 12pm to 2pm on Friday for Friday prayers. Most of their drinks cost less than $2 and most of their foods cost around $2 to $5. Nasi Katok is only $1 and we can get Nasi Katok literally everywhere in Brunei! Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong was definitely my cup of tea. Most of the foods are only $1 there. The cars would automatically slow down and stop for pedestrians to cross the street which is rarity in our country. And Brunei petrol price was only $0.33 to $0.50 per litre. Crazy!

Though the pace is slow and Brunei may not have much to offer on paper since i believe that Brunei is not dependent on tourism yet, i still find Brunei as an interesting place to visit and wander. Not because of the tourist attractions but the culture. Maybe because i am myself a chilled out kinda person, so yeah.

P/S: More photos on my Instagram highlights @fiqazizi if you wish to see hehe.


Thank you Kak Lin and Wan Cik for everything in Brunei. Till then.

August 21, 2018

THE MOSCOW CIRCUS IN MALAYSIA





I finally went to see the circus! Another thing checked off my bucket list! Yayy! Thank god for the suddenly popped up advertisement in my email that got me like, shut up and take my money! Haha. I've never been to a circus before. So why not right? And this one is animal free! Animal free is equal to cruelty free. I mean, my heart can never afford to watch elephants standing with only two feet or tigers being torture for the sake of the show like, i swear, i can never ever enjoy that. Since all of us know that circus isn't new. It's been around for centuries where we picture clowns, flying trapeze and animals doing some amusing tricks. Therefore, it's such a heart warming to know that there is finally a circus that have no animals in their show and actually proud of it.

So it's kinda like a siblings day out since there were 4 of us; me, my sister, my bff Sarah and Haziq (Sarah's baby brother). The tickets price were from RM50 up to RM280. Me and my sister bought the RM50 rear seats. While Sarah and Haziq took the RM80 front seats. We were supposed to sit separately because of the difference in ticket category. But it was our luck to sit together since it was not full house. 

I can't tell whether it was the best circus show or not since this was my very first time. But it was a great show indeed! We did enjoyed the show until the very end especially The Master Juggler, The Flying Trapeze, The Russian Swing and everything! The Illusionists was jaw dropping. They literally changing their costumes in a flash. At first i thought they were wearing layers of costumes. But they were not! I don't know how they do it perfectly. And not forgotten, the constant feature from the beginning until the end, the circus clown. Hehe. We were really amused and entertained. It worth our 50 and 80 bucks. 

The show is still on until 2nd September at Dataran Petaling Jaya. And they are also on tour to Penang, Melaka, JB, Ipoh, Kuantan and other cities within Malaysia. Go get your tickets at The Moscow Circus Malaysia Tour 2018/19 official website to experience something different.

August 17, 2018

EXAMINATION RESULTS


The examination results are out! God knows how anxious i was before the results. But Alhamdulillah. I swear i didn't expect to get an A- for STA765. The paper has a total of 3 tests. The first two tests went well for me. But during the final test, i can only answer 2 out of 5 questions. 1 question was left blank. And the 2 other questions, i just tembak with whatever little knowledge i had. Damn. I swear i was so worried thinking that i might failed the paper. I even texted the lecturer saying that if i failed the subject, kindly please tell me what to do like extra assignments or additional test to earn some marks so that i can pass. And the lecturer just left my text with blue ticks. Haha. Crickets in the room. But no lie, i was worried sick about failing the paper. Honestly because i can't afford failing any other papers especially when i'm already extending another 1 semester for my dissertation.

And yes, i got only B for MGT790. I was expecting an A tbh because i like the subject so much. Another crickets in the room. Lol. But it was just not my luck. But hey! It's called Examination Results for a reason right? Because the outcome is always full of surprises hahaha. So overall i am really thankful and happy with my results. Even though it's not that good and i believe that i can achieve better but it is what it is. And Alhamdulillah! No more sitting for exams! Yayy! One hurdle away to getting my master's degree. May Allah ease this final journey. InsyaAllah. Amin YRA! Not forgotten, CONGRATULATIONS to all my friends who completed their master's degree already by now especially to two of my best friends, Sarah Yazmin and Anis Syafiqah. They deserved this so much. I am so proud of them. Alhamdulillah! May Allah ease their future endeavors. Amin YRA!

DISCLAIMER: I am not posting this here to be proud of my so so examination results nor being joyful of me taking another semester to complete (God knows how it hurts). Tbh, i've been in a situation where i was so secretive about me failing an exam paper. That i didn't feel the ease (at all) to go to the class, resit the exam because i wanted it to be a secret so bad. Nobody (except my closest friends) should ever know about it since i was so ashamed of myself. Suddenly everything was undercovered. Trust me, i've been there and it's not healthy. I was not happy. I keep on having paranoia attack such as; What happened if someone saw me attending to extra class? Omg my friends that pass the paper are there. Run! It was very sickening. The reason why this time, i don't want to keep it undercover anymore.

And the other reason is, i've always consider my blog as an open diary where i publish my thoughts and everything. My wins and losses, my sense and nonsense. People can read them if they want. You can read them if you want. And i know that i will read the old posts again someday in the future in my 30s, 40s or even 50s because that's what i did all the time to my past. And this blog will be one of the places where i walk down the memory lane. I want to leave it here. And there are going to be good times and bad times. It does for all of us. So lighten up brothers and sisters!

August 14, 2018

I'VE INSTALLED A WATER FILTER


I have been contemplating on installing a water filter for myself weeks before i moved out recently. You might be asking why do i need water filter? We can simply buy mineral water at 7E and everywhere. It won't cost us much. And yes. I don't deny that at all. But since i drink a lot like a camel, i don't think buying myself water bottles daily would suffice. My family have a water filter at home and my previous place at Shah Alam also got one. I mean, i am so used with water filters where i can make myself hot and cold drinks at any time even at 3am in the morning. I don't have to worry or stressed out when my bottle is already empty (my bottle is literally empty all the time) and i don't have to wait for the hot water turning to warm water so that i can drink a decent plain water. So yeah, it is nearly crucial for me to have a water filter. 

So i've installed Cuckoo King Top where i invest myself RM56.60 per month for it. Well come to think of it, let say if i buy myself mineral water daily for RM2 per bottle. And i buy it everyday for the working days which a total of 5 days per week, literally 20 days per month. RM2 x 20 days = RM40. Like, i only need to add up RM16.60 (basically a price for one Subway sandwich) and i can already get myself Cuckoo King Top with sufficient amount of water for me to drink. Hassle free. Needless to mention, only a bottle of mineral water daily is never going to be enough for me. I need to boil more water over and over again only for my daily drinks. Legit. And the decision is made, here a photo of my Cuckoo King Top, my new baby! Hehe

By the way, my sister, Syaqirin and my Kak Lin are both Cuckoo Authorized Agents. This is one of the reasons why i choose to install Cuckoo instead of others. The procedure was plain easy. Contact the authorized agents via Whatsapp, choose your desired model and price (the agents will list it out for you), send your details and a copy of your IC and debit / credit card, wait for the confirmation email and agreements from Cuckoo, confirm your order via text message and wait for the technician to come over and install the product. Worry not about the payment since Cuckoo will deduct it automatically from our debit / credit card during every first week of the month. Easy. No deposit, no additional charges and free service for 7 years. Other than water filters, they also have air purifiers and whatever. I already have my water filter so i don't really care anymore about others. Haha.

Oh if you feel like installing water filter or air purifier for the betterment of life, you can get it from the authorized agents; Syaqirin Norazizi and Lina Kamarudin. Doesn't matter where is your location, the agents can help to install the product for you. Just go to their profile and DM them. They know what to do. 



Aside from that, i can't believe that i did this. Haha. Actually, when the water filter is already installed, the water pipe at the sink should always be on so that the water will continually flow inside the filter. Or else, the water filter might be empty and heat up. Idk. I've already told my housemates about the valve position this and that. I even made a video tutorial on the instructions. Lol. But every time i go to the sink, the valve was always on the opposite side. So i edited these photos and paste near the sink. Hahaha. Yes i am that extra and overreacting. But whatever. This is one of my ways on taking care of my things. I mean, everybody is sharing the water filter with me. Why it is so hard to follow such simple instructions? Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that my housemates are dumb or whatever. I believe that one or two of them were actually not paying attention to what i said. The reason why the valve is always at the opposite side.

As wise man once said, "A simple act of paying attention can take you a long way". Second to that!

August 6, 2018

50 FACTS ABOUT ME

This entry is literally inspired by Athisha Khan's YouTube video. I was at the office and let the YouTube videos continue to play by themselves and i stuck at Athisha's 50 Facts About Me video and like, yeah i should list mine on my blog too. Hehe.

Tiny Disclaimer: This is not a 20-minute-usual-post because it actually take days to list 50 Facts About Me. I keep reverting this post to draft until the list reached 50. I feel like i'm also learning myself at the same time cause sometimes, i don't even know myself. Lol and this is a long post, i suppose. So let's begin!


1. I grew up and raised at a kampung named Kampung Seliau in Negeri Sembilan (i still live here until forever). I get my first education here. My kindergarten and primary school are both at Seliau. I love how i am purely from kampung but at the same time, i also know how to blend in with the so called city culture. Like, technically i can easily switch my personality from a ruralite to urbanite and vice versa. I consider it as a bonus because i believe that not everyone can handle the kampung life (for real tho). One thing for sure, you can take me out of the kampung, but you can't take kampung out of me.

2. I am only 154cm tall (short) which is equivalent to 5'1". I am short but not that short. Also fat but not that fat. Please don't ask my weight. My current weight bothers me so much. It's too heavy to ... whatever.

3. I learned and know 5 languages; Malay, English, Mandarin, Japanese and Nogori. Hahaha (what even). I speak fluent Malay and Nogori. I don't speak fluent English but i can communicate well in English. I can write and text in English super fast. I talk to myself in English. My random thoughts are in English. My English accent on my mind is super cool but when i let it out verbally, it's ugly and awkward af. Guess i need more practice or maybe it's just my voice. I learned Mandarin during my Degree studies. And i learned Japanese for 4 years during high school. Kindly please don't ask me or speak Mandarin and Japanese with me. Because i don't remember the languages much and at all. Lol. But i do claim them in my resume because why not? Hahaha elementary level of course.

4. My fat rolls are everywhere from top to toe. I hope i can get rid of them at least before my wedding day. I need to make sure that i'm happy with my wedding photos #prayforafiqahnorazizi

5. I have many nicknames ever since primary school. During primary school, one of my friends called me Kepala Penyapu. I don't even know why. My high school name is Peaqox. That's the name that my high school friends will address me until forever. Most of Diploma friends (and family) called me Piqah. And during my Degree studies, my housemates called me Mummy for some reasons. Some of my friends never really called me by my real name that when they called me by my name, i never respond to them. It's just so weird. Haha. But tbh, i like to be called Fiqah instead of Piqah.

6. I have no problem on being single. It feels good to be single (i blogged about this before: Click here). But when i'm in love, oh darling, i'm all in heart and soul. And yes, loyalty is major for me.

7. I have only one sibling, my little sister. But she is not so little anymore. She looks like a bigger sister next to me. I'm simply grateful of her existence. I wouldn't trade her for the world even though sometimes i feel like killing her.

8. I don't drink milk, i don't eat cheesecake and my least favorite meat is lamb.

9. I like lyrics, singers, blogs, bloggers, poetry, poets. These are people that make words carry the world within them.

10. I'm not afraid of heights. I would like to ride on all of the roller coasters in the world and do everything related to heights. The higher the better. Try me.

11. I don't like people who try so hard just to fit in the society especially in the wrong way. For example, "Oh all socialites drink liquor, clubbing and eat pork. So i'm gonna do the same things and post it on social media as well. Damn i'm cool af". Like, honey, stop making fetch happen. It's not going to happen! Please, never forget our root. You are who you are.

12. I always expect for the best and the worst to happen. A realist all the way.

13. I have the weirdest, funniest voice. I kinda not like my own voice.

14. Although I have a lot of acquaintances, my real-deal circle of friends is actually very small.

15. There's no such thing as coffee or tea to me. I drink both. Anytime anywhere.

16. I love animals intensely and believe strongly in animal rights. We are the voice to the voiceless. Save the animals! Love and protect them at all cost!

17. I've never forgotten those who were close to me. Even those that opted against our friendship. I'm sure i no longer occupy a room in their mind and heart. Yet in mine, they'll always find a place.

18. Sometimes, politics frustate me beyond belief. And i'm not sure whether politics or the people that frustate me more.

19. It took me three times to pass Inferential Statistics during my Degree studies (used to be my biggest secret but not anymore since it's already in the past). It's the only subject that i've ever failed in my whole life. And i failed the paper twice! I get frustated just by thinking about it. But Alhamdulillah i passed the Advanced Inferential Statistics during my Master studies in one go.

20. I am a really bad procrastinator. 7 out of 10 of my assignments were finished a day before they were due. If that!

21. I am a fast texter and always feel embarrassed (and sometimes mad) when i reply in a millisecond while other people take forever.

22. I never experienced scholarships or any loan (educational loan to be exact) in my life. My only financial source is my family. My first ever allowance that is not from my family was my intern allowance. I'm still going to get my allowance from my parents until this September. Call me spoiled or sheltered if you like. But brb, getting ready for October onwards.

23. I used to bite my nails (i still do). Unless if i have henna on or after i polish them.

24. I don't like coke, soda or any carbonated drinks. I can drink them when there's no other choice. But they will never be my first option.

25.  I’m still single.

26. For a short while, I really wanted to be a stewardess. But it was not my calling.

27.  I can tolerate grammatical errors but it bothers me when i see words with incorrect usage of uppercase and lowercase.

28. I've never had my wisdom teeth removed yet. Maybe because they still haven't come in. Idk.

29. I used to play volleyball, netball and handball in school.

30. I have both B2 and D license. I first learned to ride and drive when i was still in primary school. Thanks to my late grandma. She is the one who taught me. She even once went to a roller coaster ride with me and my sister at Genting Highlands. I swear our parents will never go on a roller coaster ride with us like ever. My grandmother was way too cool. Al Fatihah to her.

31. My phone is in my hand 24/7. Unless when it's not.

32. Everything in my computer is perfectly organized in folders within folders within folders ... I also clear my browsing history and empty the recycle bin religiously. Same goes to my phone. Good riddance, no cache, all clear.

33. Sometimes, i overreact when there's no real reason. And sometimes, i may not react at all when there's a real reason to do so.

34. I have a quote / caption bank in my phone for my future reference.

35. I consider myself as a family oriented person. I love my family more than anything in the world. They are at the center of everything. It's sad for me how we got lost in our own schedules, more often than not, forgetting these precious beings. It's good to always reflect back and consider their feelings. No matter how far we go, never put our family behind us.

36. I used to have my own diary during high school. The most valuable one was the one when i was in Form 5. I still keep it until today. The diary was thick as a brick, hundreds pages long. Very dramatic but many pages were just left blank lol! Actually it was written for our English teacher, Sir Rashid. He insisted everybody to have a diary, wrote it in English (fully English) and submitted to him daily or at least twice a week. I remember his car was so full with students' diaries. Hahaha. He read the diaries only to check on the grammars and vocabularies, not the contents because he never commented on the contents unless when the student was depressed or gone through hell, he left with some advice to ponder. The funny thing is, during that time, everybody was reading each others' diaries like a magazine. No privacy at all. Hahaha. But thanks to Sir Rashid. I never really write before. And come out i really love the idea of diary and writing. One of the reason why i am still blogging.

37. "If i could turn back time" is the phrase that once in a while, echoes in my soul. There is this sadness that overtakes my being. I always wish that i could travel back in time and do many things differently than the ones i did. Especially with my late grandmother. And i am acutely aware of the fact that she's gone years and i find myself self-conscious about the fact that, despite this passage of time, despite all those years that have rolled by, i still feel a gap where she once was, which i can't quite find anything to fill. But at the same time, i also cannot go inside a black hole where time and space are said to change places. And yes. That's the thing about "life goes on". It does. It's just that you tend to still miss the life you once had. I just need the odd moan now and again to get me through.

38. I can't clarify whether i am high maintenance or not. Sometimes i am and sometimes i am not. From a scale of 1 to 10, i guess my high maintenance level is 7.

39. 40% morning person and 60% night owl. I can actually rock both.

40. I can't imagine my life without the internet. Life without the internet is pretty hard to fathom. We use it for virtually everything including to connecting with those around us. Even my mobile data is unlimited so that i can browse anything anywhere. Dear internet, never leave us. We love you.

41. I eat almost everything. I finish my plate every time. I hate those who waste their food purposely. Especially just because of crappy reasons. If you don't wanna eat it, don't take it, don't buy it. I mean, at the other side of the world, people are hungry to death. And here you are wasting your food on daily basis. Wow such balance Yin and Yang.

42. I can see ghosts when i was a kid. Like, legit. I had sixth sense. But the ability and the memory faded as i growing up. All gone now. My family told me that when i was in primary school, there's this one time when i hate going to school because i was seeing 'things'. One time i refused to eat because i saw 'them' at the canteen. I even claimed that i saw them here and there. Until some Ustaz(s) came to heal me. Crazy years back then. Haha. But i remember nothing now. And hell no i am not seeing ghosts on daily basis. Even though i'm afraid of people more than i'm afraid of ghost. But still, since i'm always by myself, let us not seeing each other, ghosts. Thank you.

43. I don't like dolls. I never play with dolls. I hate dolls. I like Barbie dolls but only on pictures. When i was a kid, i watched Chucky (Child's Play), the doll that comes alive and become a serial killer. It was so terrifying that i ended up believe that all dolls can come alive. Until today hahaha. Call me immature but i ain't taking no risk man. No dolls in my house. Ever! But i do like teddy bears and the other cute soft toys like penguins, chipmunks and all. It's just that, i can live without them. I don't need them. So yeah, i'm good.

44. I can nod off very quickly, sleep deeply, nap at any time and fall asleep anywhere. I have the ability to fall asleep within 5 seconds of laying down or close my eyes. I could fall asleep very easily and be snoring sometimes. Idk hahaha. It doesn't matter what the situation is. Working, vacation, super tired or not tired at all. I've done this my entire life and i have no idea. I need no sheep to count to sleep. And yeah, i don't have sleep disorder.

45. Call me old school, but i really value the three magic words; PLEASE, THANK YOU and I AM SORRY. I don't care who you are, what you do, whatsoever. These words are crucial in life. Say it out loud! Everytime!

46. I have Trypanophobia. Which is fear of needles or anything that involve with injections. I don't like injections. I hate injections. I never donate my blood because of this. I saw that people are so obsessed to have the fairest, pale skin that they willing to take the risky vitamin C injections, going under the knife and all like idk man. People are just out of their mind only for vanity. Like seriously in the end, nobody even cares.

47. I used to be so obsessed with lipsticks especially matte lip cream. One time i have about 50 matte lip creams with the same colours but different brands this and that. Until one day my heart decided that i don't like them anymore. And today i have only like 10 lipsticks but the most used ones are only 2.

48. I don't have that many clothes, scarves in my wardrobe. Thank god for the washing machine. I keep recycling the same outfit. I swear i wear every piece for million times until it worn out. I only shop when i feel like it. It can be like once a month or 100 times a month depending on my mood. I am not a shopaholic. I don't splurge much on clothes, handbags, makeups and all. But when i do, i splurge a lot. Hehe

49. I have no self control over food. I can say that i'm on diet for the month but already binge af on the first day. That's how critical my self control is. I want to change so bad but most of the time i just don't care. I think it's because of i'm still in my comfort zone of which i'm already fat but not really that fat. I don't exercise. It's funny how during high school i was kinda fit. I do push up everyday, running for miles, standing under the sun for 6 hours straight and all. But the moment i'm out, i don't even have a decent sport shoes. Lol. But i do have one now. One thing for sure, if anyone ever come to me telling how fat i am in a very annoying way, my only reply would be; "I can lose weight for free. You need about ten grand to fix your f***ing face. So Miley, what's good?"

50. I get annoyed very easily and on the other note, i am also easily amused. I too can be at the state of being simultaneously amused and annoyed. Very confusing, i know. But that's just me.

P/S: There are more to spill of course. But let's just stop here and thank you to those that read until the end.
Wow! I do feel like a widely open book by now hahaha.