PRODUCTIVE, BLISSFUL WEEKENDS

Last weekends were one of my most productive weekends that made me happy and glow for even days after. Let me jot it down here just so i will never forget.

On Saturday, my bff, Sarah came by for sleepover at my house here in KL to, you know, spend some time and see KL since we both are clearly not from KL. Haha. As you know, i'm from Rantau, Negeri Sembilan. And Sarah is from Puncak Alam. I was actually expecting her to come around 3pm but she managed to finish her business earlier so she was here around 1pm.

We first went to Publika and Sunway Putra Mall to eat and buy some things. And since we had more free time than we planned, plus we already booked tickets for Ralph Breaks the Internet movie at 9.30pm in KLCC. To kill time, we decided to go to Muzium Negara and Jalan TAR as well. Haha so random. And the most epic moment was when we arrived at KLCC. We were at the the ground floor and everybody was looking at the higher floor from below, and we both were like, what's up there? We saw totally nothing. K what's wrong with these people? Hahaha.

There were even security guards asking everybody to move and not stopping at that area. We were clueless like crazy and so Sarah checked her Twitter since we all know that news on Twitter spread faster than the wildfire. I already get rid of Twitter for months so i can't do the checking. Come out that there was actually someone who was trying to commit suicide and jump from the highest floor of the building. It means that the many people were looking at him (some were recording video) and maybe waiting for him to jump. But thank God, the man was saved by the firefighters and the suicide case didn't happened. I truly can't imagined if he really jumped and his dead body was on floor with bloods and fractured bones and all. Omg. May Allah bless that guy!

Btw, Ralph Breaks the Internet was super cute. Especially the part when Vanellope was singing about the Slaughter Race that made her an official Disney's princess. It melts my heart like crazy. You guys should really go and watch it. I promise it won't disappoint any of you.

After the movie, before we went home, Sarah and i went to Family Mart since Sarah never really had the chance before to have a taste of the famous Oden. Even when we already had our dinner at 4 Fingers, KLCC. Lol. But it was a great time though. I don't remember the last time we spent a day together like this. I also have no idea when is the next time will be.

On Sunday, we had our semi-annual birthday lunch at Flora Terrace, KL. Sarah found this place online like no other. We even bought unicorn cake for the birthday girls. I'm so glad that i found the cute, delicious unicorn cake on Instagram with such a good price. The unicorn cake fits the restaurant theme so well. We had a very good time and everybody was so happy. Like, what else really matter than the happy faces right?

During the night, i spent my time with my another best friend of mine, Ainul Fariha at Nexus Bangsar South. She was actually had to work in KL on Monday. And since she's from Malacca, so her company rented a nice, big hotel room only for her alone. So she invited me over to update to each other about our lives and for me to accompany her as well. It's nice actually to only spend time at the hotel, doing nothing and only talking to each other. Because, we tend to share more about everything compared to when we go here and there.

I supposed to have another job interview on Monday morning at Kota Damansara. However, on Sunday night when i was spending my time with Ainul, suddenly i got a text message from Starbucks manager, asking me whether i'm still searching for a job or not. I said yes because yeah, i'm still jobless. She invited me over to Starbucks Plaza Damas (Hartamas) for the details. I told her about my condition as a student which i need to have days off to go to the campus. And providentially, unlike other companies that rejected me because of it, she said that Starbucks is very okay with that condition. I cancelled my plan to go to the interview at Kota Damansara. I gambled it hard praying that i will get this part time Barista job at Starbucks. And Alhamdulillah, i straightly got the job during the interview. And i already started to work at Starbucks yesterday. It is a fun job tbh. I can't wait to learn on how to make the variety of coffee with such flavors. Little did i know that if we want to be a Starbucks Barista, we have to attend a class. The training itself takes two weeks and we even have books to study. Wow #TIL

Knowing myself, i really love working and learning at the same time which i know that i will not just wasting my time doing part time job at such company. And i did learnt something right away during the interview which, typhoid vaccination is compulsory for all F&B handlers in Malaysia. Tbh, i never know about this at all before. Lol. And yeah, i took the injection yesterday at DBKL, Cheras.

So, i will work with Starbucks until end of February 2019. Because the minimum period to work there is 3 months. I think it's good for me since i will finish my Master's Degree on January 2019. So i will assume my working at Starbucks until February is actually a good break for me before i'm back browsing for more relevant jobs for myself. Plus working at Starbucks didn't affect my dissertation and campus schedule at all. Which is great. I feel so relieved because i've been unemployed for the last 21 days and now, i'm back being someone who is not jobless. Hahaha. May Allah ease! 

IT FINALLY MADE SENSE

It’s Saturday and I feel like I should spend some of my precious time here since I don’t feel like doing anything at this moment. But I’m going out tonight to watch Fantastic Beast 2. Well tbh, I never really watch or a never a fan of Fantastic Beast nor Harry Potter. It’s so weird when everybody is talking about Dumbledore, Hogwarts invitation and stuff while I’m at the corner of the world know nothing about them. Lol. And everytime I tell people that I never watch Harry Potter, they will for sure be like, “No way you must be joking”. Regrettably, I ain’t.

I already watched the first movie of Fantastic Beast at home recently (glad that someone recorded the movie at home). It’s because my man told me to watch the first one first before we go and watch the second one so that I won’t ended up sleeping in cinema for having no clue at all. And obviously tonight movie is his choice of movie. But since I’m up to anything. So, I guess I shall be fine though.

And yesterday was my man’s 25^th birthday! Happy birthday! Hehe. We are also going to celebrate it tonight as well. I bought these lovely cupcakes for him. Been holding myself back from eating it hahaha. I can’t wait to eat them. Oh he didn’t know about these cupcakes yet. So I’m gonna set this post to be posted around 7pm today so that he won’t have the time to accidently read my blog and know about the cupcakes before me. Yeah I’m such a genius #flipseverything

Excitement aside, yesterday was also my dissertation progress presentation to the fellow panels. The presentation was during the evening. And during the morning I spent my time meeting my supervisor, Dr Sayang (yes her name is Dr Sayang. I sayang my Dr Sayang hehe). My relationship with Dr Sayang has been very well this semester. She asked about my work life. And I told her that I already quit my job, currently jobless and browsing for another job opportunity so that I can earn by myself at least for next month of December.

I also told her that I’m kinda depressed for being jobless. Even though I have no serious money issues but still, I’m not happy with my recent situation. I already got few job offers but they rejected me because of my constraint as a student which in a month, I will need to have about 3 days off for me to go to the campus to finish my dissertation. I never thought that asking for 3 days off per month is too much to ask. I mean, we have about 20 working days in a month. And I will not only be around for only 3 days. Like, I can be at work for the rest of 17 days. And it’s only for 2 months until January 2019. But come out, it is actually not adequate to some companies and so they moved on to another candidates.

And Dr Sayang advised me to not continue working until I finish my dissertation, the only hurdle for me to get my Master’s Degree. The date of our dissertation submission is on the 28^th December. Dr Sayang counselled me to free my mind from anything now and only focus on my dissertation. And I can get my feet back to work on January. And she also mentioned that isn’t this the perfect time for me to quit my job and at the same being rejected by other companies? Which it might be a sign for me to forget about others and only focus to one.

I swear suddenly everything made sense after she said that. And yeah, I buy her advise and I’m not going to browse for any job and stress about me being jobless at this moment no more. Unless if I get any offer from the previous applications then I might have to consider it for my future after my Master’s Degree. But if they are not consent with my situation as a student, then it is what it is. I still have another big thing to accomplish. I have about 6 weeks until my dissertation submission date. I really hope that I can get through my dissertation this time so that I can walk into 2019 happy and worry free. And yes! I can do this!

MOVED OUT AND MOVED IN

This is a long due post tbh. I just got the chance to post it today for some reason.

I moved out to another room last 30th September. Not far from the office which the office is at Plaza Mont Kiara. In fact, way nearer, compared to the previous place but came out, the traffic is a bit worse lol. Oh btw, it's no longer my office anymore because i just submitted my resignation letter yesterday. It's for the best. InsyaAllah.

 So, previously, i was renting and living with the owner of the house at Sri Putramas 1 Condominium, Dutamas. She was a single mom living alone in such a comfortable, modern house. So there were two rooms that were vacant and she rented the rooms to us. One room was my room. And the other room was a room for two other tenants (used to be three person in that room).

But suddenly she decided to bring her family to live in with her. Therefore, all of us, the tenants were required to move out. She has another unit at the next building because literally that's what she does for a living; renting rooms. The two other tenants moved there as suggested. But i refused. Haha. Because the unit was not as nice and comfortable as the unit i was living in. So i decided to find another (better) place to stay and voila! 

Alhamdulillah. The room is much bigger than the previous one and the rental rate is also cheaper. It is located at Bukit Prima Pelangi which is very very near (almost walking distance but i drive lol) to Mont Kiara. There are 5 girls about my age including me living in the same unit. Which is more than okay for me. Especially when the girls are also very nice, clean and easy going as i am. Oh, did you see the small (fairy) bulb lights? They are so cute right? I know hehe. Yeah i bought that only to decorate the room because the room is generally three times bigger than my previous room. So i need to add some things to make me feel occupied.

 And i have wallpapers! I was thinking of buying a tapestry and hang it on the wall but then i was like, nah, not going to spend on this room no more. Lol. So i browsed photos on Pinterest and cut and paste the photos on the wall using glue stick. I love the outcome so much (sorry for the bad lighting).

The wardrobe locker at my room was originally looks like the top of the grid photos. The right side of the locker door can't be closed anymore because of the loosen screws that can't no longer be fixed. The inside of the locker also looks kinda old and poor that made me not happy and ugh i just can't. I know i can't look at it forever. And i have to do something. So yeah, i did a wardrobe locker makeover as well. Haha.

For the inside of the locker, i just used normal wrappers to wrap all of the inside area. I swear it took me 2+ hours only to cut and paste the wrappers. For the outside of the locker, i used sticker wrappers, which is easier to cut and paste. It's good that they have wooden designs for the wrappers so the locker literally looks like a brand new. The white color at the center of the locker is a cabinet latch. It helps to shut the locker close. And i bought all of the items at MR.DIY.

It doesn't hurt to reminisce every now and then right? So this was my locker during my high school year, 2010. Yes i wrapped my locker. Not only me, but most of the girls in my high school did wrapped and decorated their lockers. It's obviously not necessary at all. But you know, sometimes it's the little things that make you happy and feels like home. Kindly ignore the untidiness. Lol.

And yeah, moving out is tiring i must say. Especially the part when to load our stuff here to there. I even have my Cuckoo water filter to move with me which i need to set appointments with the technicians bla bla. And i have 6 months contract for this current room. The actual plan was to stay here at least for a year. But then, idk anymore. I rented a room here because my previous working place was at Plaza Mont Kiara. Since i'm no longer working there and officially resigned yesterday, there is a very huge probability for me to move out once i get a new permanent job somewhere else. Where i move to a place nearer to my working place. Because i don't like traffic jam. And i want to save my money from petrol and Touch n Go for as much as i can. I wonder how may times i will move out and move in here and there until i finally settle down lol. But one thing for sure, as long as i'm not married, i will always go for the room for one. Because somehow i really enjoy being alone. I used to afraid of being alone, eating alone when i was younger. But now being alone is one of the best thing ever. I'm so going to enjoy this while it last.

P/S: I went to a job interview yesterday and it somehow went very well. I really hope that i will get that job and work there at least for a month or two or until i finish with my Master's Degree. Amin! Last two weeks i did went to one job interview for the same position that i was with my previous company which is Data Analyst. The interview went well actually but the particular position was just not meant for me. And i already refused to go to one job interview and rejected one job offer. It's been a hell ride of emotional roller coaster these past weeks. I am officially jobless at this moment. Today is legit the day 1 of my unemployment. I supposed to enjoy this because i'm still studying but somehow i feel like suffocating for some reason. But whatever it is, i do believe that what is meant to be will always be. It's only a matter of time. InsyaAllah.

HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER

It's funny how 2017 was one of my best years in life and suddenly 2018 feels like no more. Well it's actually not fair for me to say that 2018 is not listed as one of the best years since it's only October. But on the other note, hello, it's already October please. Lol. But before i compare to all the worse things that might take pretty too long to write. I probably should list out first the good (major) things that happened in 2018 so far.

Earlier this year, during the beginning of my (supposedly) final semester on March 2018, i started my job as Data Analyst at a market research company at Mont Kiara. I was actually already got the job since December 2017 but i started to work on March 2018. The story behind how i got the job is one of the most exceptional ones that i never want to forget.

It was during our previous semester around November 2017. We had an assignment to visit any research company that related to our field (statistics) to see how they do the analytics, run the company and whatnot. In my group, i was the one who was assigned to email and contact all of the desired companies to visit. A total of 4 companies if i'm not mistaken including the company that i'm currently working at today (i'll address my company as RS). The companies that we planned to visit was all of the companies suggested by our lecturer. Somehow, we got to visit a research company at Bandar Baru Bangi. Because it was the only company that was available to visit at that time. It was a good experience. Really.

About weeks later, during my evening class at the lab, i got an anonymous phone call. It was Datin Dr R from RS. She is the owner and founder of RS. I was shaking really bad to hear from her. I remember the time when my lecturer was praising her because of her career. She apologized for she can't accept us for a visit because of the company schedules. And out of the blue, she asked, was the email sent to her was written by myself or did i googled, copy and paste all of the words? I answered honestly that it was all my own words alone. Because it is! And just like that, she offered me a position at her company, she asked my CGPA, asked me to submit my resume and told me to meet her at TPC, KL for an interview. Of course, the interview was a success so here i am today. Alhamdulillah.

Previously, i went back and forth from Shah Alam to Mont Kiara for work and studies. But now since it's only my dissertation left. So i rented a room near Mont Kiara. Mont Kiara is one of the most luxurious and costly places in KL. It's the place for expatriates (the rich ones). Even many of Malaysians celebrities live around here. I am glad to have the experience to live and work here. But honestly, real talk, this is so not the place for me or any freshmen out there. Haha.

The next best thing that takes place in 2018 was my brown sugar. Hehe. Our first met was on the 24th March (thanks to Instagram Story archives for the date lol). Actually we've known each other for a long time but let's save the story for the other day. And we took our vow to stick with each other until the end of the time on the 10th April (thanks to my bff's boyfriend's birthday that occur on the same date which i better not to forget lolol). I've always thought that i'll be single forever but thanks to my brown sugar for the twisted plot in my life story. And yeah, i know he's reading this. I hope he is happy with this one paragraph about him since he always tells me to blog about him and his charm. Hahaha boo!

And since many good (and bad) things must come to an end. Aside from my extension of semester because of my dissertation this year that led me to a major breakdown, so goes to my career with RS. I believe that my time with RS has up and it's time for me to move on for the betterment of my career. There's nothing here for me anymore. 8 months with RS has already taught me everything that i need to know about the industry, i have met a lot of influential people, went to a lot of places and learnt a lot of things and i would never trade these with anything.

And yeah, i will submit my resignation letter anytime for now. Which lead me to being jobless from November onwards. I am currently actively seeking for a part time job for maybe a month or two. I don't mind about the job scopes because i do it only for the income. I have obligations. Thus, monthly income is a must. I did applied for permanent jobs that related to my skills but i know that the recruiters would not going to call me in a blink on an eye after i submitted the applications. So yeah. Let's pray that Afiqah Norazizi will not going to be jobless for the whole November until December until January until February until forever. Amin YRA!

I think it's about time for me to face unemployment right? All my life i never stop moving from one stage to another (better) stage. And suddenly i realized that at this moment, there's nothing in front of me to look forward anymore. But i am still thankful because i am still pursuing my Master's Degree until January 2019 (InsyaAllah Amin!) which it's not that i will just be a couch potato and do nothing at all. But still, it gets me like no other.

 However, i know that this is not the end of my life. It is just the beginning. I was lucky enough all this while because i got a job that i never asked for. The actual plan was to find a job after i finish with my Master's Degree. But Allah the Most Gracious gave me the job just like that, out of nowhere. Hence, this is the part where i become even with the rest of my friends, which i need to apply for a job, wait, pray and hoping for the best. And this too shall pass. InsyaAllah.

NIGHTS OF FRIGHT 6

Me and my sister went to Nights of Fright 6 at Sunway Lagoon! Thanks to my bff for sending me the link one month before the event. Tbh, i did saw some of my friends went to the previous NOF but i didn't know when exactly the dates and whatnot. But i know it now. It occurs during the Halloween season every year. Lol like when else right? And it takes place on every Friday until Sunday night for one whole month of Halloween (every October i guess).

At first, i saw the first price was only RM48 (ticket only). Then, it increased to RM52 (also ticket only). And when i was about to purchase the online tickets at the end of September, the price was already RM64 (with devil's horn or blood bag). Just now i checked on their web, the price is already RM69 (with devil's horn or blood bag). Therefore i concluded that the price will increase along with time especially when the event is about to end. Well as the saying goes, early bird catches the worm, right?

So to those who feel like going to this NOF on the upcoming years, you better mark you calendar and buy the ticket as early as possible. And if you have extra money, please don't mind add on the express lane (Quack Express) for RM45 per person to skip the long queues, save your time and enjoy more rides, haunted houses compared to others. I swear the regular queues will take you up to 10-40 minutes only for one attraction. It's really an advantage for those who queue at the express lane.

I love the fact that everybody was putting on the devil's horns on their head. It was so in the mood. The devil's horn has 4 colors to choose. Which it doesn't look weird for the male guests to put them on as well. And oh, the blood bag was actually filled with drinks such as lemonade and idk what other flavors. We bought one blue lemonade drink in a big bulb. So i guess that the drink inside the blood bag was also lemonade lol. Or maybe watermelon juice.

The heavy fog was everywhere to make the environment looks more scary and blurry so that the many ghosts can easily scare you out of nowhere. Sometimes the ghosts just follow you around and yes, people were also screaming everywhere. The funny thing was, i told my sister several times that we need to do double cleansing once we got home because i was concerned if the heavy fog will affect our skin lol like what even (?)

I don't remember the last time i went to a haunted house. Perhaps it was when i was a little girl. At the fun fair with my late, very brave grandmother haha. I guest NOF is the only in Malaysia that have many haunted houses in one place at one time. Well they didn't named it Festival of Fear for nothing right?

I learned that Universal Studios Singapore also have the same concept of event. They called it Halloween Horror Nights. The general admission ticket price is S$68 for one. Maybe i can go there someday in the future. And oh don't worry, NOF is not as scary as you thought it would be. Maybe it's just me but my scary rate is 3 out of 10. Not to brag but i was just enjoying myself inside the haunted houses. I like their costumes and prosthetic makeups. Most of them really look like the real ones. So far it was a new experience to me. I had fun and i might be coming again for the next NOF. But for the next time, i will purchase the Quack Express. For real. Haha.

P/S: Yesterday was my brown sugar's convocation day. I was so happy to share in the excitement. And i'm so proud of him too. I am sure yesterday will be only the first of many proud, and wherever it is, my prayers will always go with him.

PEOPLE CHANGE, THEY GROW

We need to understand that what is said and done years ago may not apply today. Don't use someone's past against them especially when you have not even meet or talk to that person for a long time. We are not the same individual as we were a year ago, a month ago or even a week ago. Doesn't matter if you were close to that person for years or decades, but once you are no longer connected, trust me, for at least some parts, you just have to forget what you think you know. Because some or most of it are not the same anymore. We may not realize or see the progress, but that's how life goes.

People change, they grow.

BEING NICE MATTERS

 

I still remember it was on a sunny Friday noon. The males were having their Friday prayers, thus, the lunch hour during Friday is longer compared to the other working days. So i decided to go to 1 Mont Kiara, the mall across the road for window shopping and get myself something to eat. Unluckily, suddenly it was raining cats and dogs and i didn't bring any umbrella with me. Obviously i can't cross the road without getting very wet. Along with other pedestrians that have no umbrella, i just waited for the rain to stop at the outside of the mall.

All of a sudden, there's this one lady came to me, and gave me her brand new umbrella. I was like; It's okay because how are you going to cross the road later on? And how am i going to give this umbrella back to you? Calmly she replied; Don't mind me. Just take the umbrella. You need it more than me at this moment. I almost cried with the rain because seriously, what did i do to deserve this act of kindness? There were many pedestrians she can pick to give her umbrella but she picked me. Alhamdulillah. May Allah shower the lady with abundant blessings and may she gets the best in life and the hereafter. Amen! I still have the umbrella with me until today. Hehe one good deed remains.

I accept as true that what the lady did was actually not in the norm for our society. Even if i was in her shoes, i might not just giving away my umbrella to random people because i know that i will be using the same umbrella over and and over again in the future like, how it is all about me and not about others. It's a shame though. I own that.

But what i want to highlight is, being nice is matters. Being nice is important but seems very hard to do in current times. Yet, people long for niceness. I'm not only saying about giving your umbrella for free to the other person but look around us. People are quick to express their outrage and disdain for others. Everybody seems to have strong opinions about everything and are not shy at all to express them with vigor doesn't matter whether the opinions are good or bad. We are so used with being mean, rude and arrogant that we think it is okay (sadly even feel cool and great about ourselves) to do it on daily basis. Like, let me give you few situations:

1. We feel okay to look down to other people and feel superior to those who are not as rich as we are, as clever as we are or as good standard as we think we are. We often do this to the janitors, the banglas or immigrants that are here to earn money because their countries are not as fortunate as ours. And sometimes to the McDonalds employees because we are fed with mentality that those who are working as such are actually not as good as us who working in the so called 'better' industry. And we are living with the mentality of "customers is always right". While if it's us who are in the wrong situation, doens't matter if we are the best, loyal customers, this slogan never applies like for real. Grow up.

2. You are working at the luxury or high-end retail stores as a sales assistant. Someone is coming to the store. Since you are paid for 'only' assisting the rich that wear good looking outfits and seems to have such amount of money, and this particular person entering the store looks just so so and you think that person could never afford such brand (might be poor or lost or something). So you give that person such an arrogant look and sometimes to be easy, just be rude to this kind of people because you think that he/she didn't worth being around the store. I mean, are you seriously doing this? Should i remind you that you are just a sales assistant, not the owner of the brand. Those people that you looked down might having more money in their bank account compared to yours. Come back to earth. Just do your damn job evenly.

3. You are driving a brand new let say, BMW. So you automatically expecting other people on the road especially those who just driving the local car brands to respect and prioritize you as you are because come on, it's BMW guys! Not Perodua nor Proton ew. Everybody needs to give ways to you first in whatever condition. Sometimes, no signals from you is needed because it is you, BMW (okay we got it). And oh, during traffic jam, you don't care about others since the priority is always yours since your car is one of the most expensive on the road so others, please back off! Even when accidents happen because of you sometimes, since the other car or person that got hit is just nah, so whatever, the fault is theirs. Lol. I seriously never understand these kind of people like, why are those who have bigger and better car always have the least common sense on the road? Is it a curse or something? And you know what's worse? When you are not even driving a luxury car at all but pretend like one by being the road dumpsters. Smh.

However, please don't get me wrong. I believe and i know that these three situations does not apply to everyone. But these situations are really the ones that's happening everyday in our lives. Honestly it is not okay at all, especially if we are the cause or that kind of jerk. It is also not something for us to be proud of. Ever. Being nice is such a good vibe that not only will you be more liked but trusted and respected, too. So let's bring it back in fashion. Give niceness a chance. Be nice. It's easy.

FLUFFY BABY

 

It was a long Saturday. Me and my sister had our grading at SK Sri Hartamas. I didn't memorize the steps and all, worrying to not pass the stage. We spent the morning doing the steps and the grading occurred at 2pm. Alhamdulillah i guess it went well for both of us. And then, I asked my sister to accompany me to buy things at the (hands down) best store ever, MR.DIY! Just to buy few things to fill my needs to move out to another place at the end of this month. We had the roasted chicken rice with mushroom at the food court for late lunch and the taste was delicious like i'm so going there again to eat the exact same dish. We even had our first ever mochi in life. It smells sweet and squishy and yeah we can eat that thing and looking forward to eat more in the future as well hahaha.

And then my sister sent me home before she went back to our kampung at Seliau alone. I didn't tag along since on Monday, I went to KL Bird Park with my brown sugar. Oh, KL Bird Park is also one of the good places to visit. I mean, for someone who has soft spot for animals like me, normally i get quite sad at zoo type places since i don't believe that animals should be caged up that i can feel the sadness in their eyes which ended up making me sad for days. But KL Bird Park is clearly for a good cause. The birds are all free to fly, the place also help to protect and breed the endangered species. Everything was good to me except for the ostrich. For me they should give the ostrich more and bigger space for them to run and do their stuff. It's just not fair for them. But overall, the place is definitely worth a visit.

Okay back to the story (such distraction). So after my sister sent me home, as usual, i took the lift to level 17 where my unit is. When i reached level 17, while walking to my unit, suddenly i saw this fluffy fat cat at the corridor like, how on earth she is here and who own this munchkin?! And i saw all of the doors in the neighbourhood are closed. It's kinda weird cause afaik, usually my neighbours always let their doors open that i can see them having dinner together and all. So i guess this cat might be lost or something. I decided to stay and play with her for as long as i can. And if nobody claims the cat, i'm so gonna call my sister to come back and bring the cat home. Sebab kalau curi and kita jaga baik baik, HALAL. Hahaha. Such theory.

I swear she is the cutest and so manja like i suddenly forgot how tired i was and all, just by seeing her. Her present already makes me so happy. That's when i realized that i was actually at the wrong floor which at level 15 instead of level 17. No wonder some of the things are not familiar to me like the closed doors and especially the cat. Haha. Few minutes later, one door was open, and she ran inside to her owner, her home. Literally one the cutest 5 seconds ever.

Generally, i knew that the only hikmah for me going to the wrong level was to meeting the fluffy baby. So that i forgot about the long day. God's plan is always the best.

SELFIE MUSEUM KL

 

To begin, here is a selfie of myself behind the curtain. Isn't she beautiful? Aww ikr! Thank you.

 I swear me and my sister have like 6 months supply of Instagram photos just from this place. But let's save it for the other day.

Tbh, i don't have much to say about this. But since the place was so photo worthy, therefore, i need to have a post about it here to save some in my blog. Hehe. I wonder why they called the place as a museum since i didn't see it as a museum. No written nor printed details about what it is about with the giant gummy bears, floating marshmallow and etc. They do have staff to tell us that this room is sponsored by Benefit Cosmetics, dUCk and whatnot. But mostly, the staff were there as timekeepers to remind us the visitors like "Miss are you done here? We shall move to another room now" since they do have interval sessions to make sure that they are not so many people in one place. To make us easier and more comfortable in term of taking on-point photos. 

And in my point of view, Selfie Museum is also not really an accurate name to represent the place. They should name the place as something else. Because i believe that 90% of the good photos are not selfies but the photos of us taken by another person. Like, it is not sufficient for us to be there to only taking selfies. But i do believe that selfie is a strong word. Therefore, if they named the place as, let say, Desserts Thematic Rooms, it is not going to give an impact as much as Selfie Museum did. But whatever, just my random thoughts hahaha.

So the Selfie Museum is located at Fahrenheit 88, KL near to Pavilion. The entrance ticket is RM45 per person. But since we bought it online at their website, so it's RM40 for one. You can read all of the details here at their website. You will also get cupcakes, marshmallows, Baskin Robbins ice cream, Tealive and mini tarts inside there. I swear the mini tarts were so good and to die for. The tart flavors were coconut and banana like omg where did you guys get these mini tarts?! I want to order one big box damn!

If you are a good-photo freaks aka Instagram freaks like me, i swear the Selfie Museum is a happy place for you. Don't go alone! Bring your photographer friends as well. As for my case, i thank God for the existence of my sister to take good photos of mine. Needless to mention, it is me who set the angles and stuff every time. All my sister has to do was holding the camera, and press the snap button (1 million times). But still, what are Fiqazizi's Instagram photos without her sister behind the camera. And vice versa.

THE INTERN AND THE CRAZY RICH ASIANS

 Jules: Also, if we got divorced, he'll remarry. Maybe not to this girl but someone. And we both know i am not easy. So i could be like, single forever which means that ... Forgive me, this does keep me up in the middle of the night. That I don't ...

Ben: What?

Jules: That i don't want to be buried alone. Paige will be with her husband and Matt will be with his new family and i will be buried with strangers. I'll be buried in the strangers singles section of the cemetery. Not that that is a reason to stay together but it's just, you know, a scary sidebar.

Ben: Let's take that one off your plate right now. You can be buried with me and Molly. I happen to have space, okay?

Jules: Oh thank you so much. I didn't think that i even hire you.

I can see me in Jules especially at the part when she said that she is not easy.

I am a sucker for movies about woman. I like stories about woman. Especially about friendship, woman with great career, strong woman, family and stuff. They feel close to my heart. That sometimes i can relate so much. And i like that.

When i first saw The Intern Movie on tv, i watched it because of Anne Hathaway. And because of the title itself. Which i was convinced that i will not going to waste my 2 hours watching some crappy movie. And i've experienced being an intern too, so yeah. At first i thought the movie was about an old man who is an intern that trapped into different kind of troubles because of the CEO. Almost exactly like The Devil Wears Prada. Only this time Anne Hathaway is the devil. To an old man. Not that evil kind of devil like come on, it's Anne Hathaway. But more to like a boss who doesn't care about her intern, giving him such works etc and then something happen, she regrets it later. Haha. But i was completely wrong. Totally.

One paragraph spoiler alert ...

 Long story short, it is a movie about a retiree, Ben who gets bored of retirement and finally become a senior intern at a fast-growing internet clothing company (almost exactly like FashionValet). The CEO and founder of the company, Jules is his boss (obviously). Jules is a career oriented woman who don't really has the time to pay attention at the senior intern. But somehow, they spend a lot of time working together and grow on each other. Jules has a child named Paige and a stay-at-home husband, Matt. Since she didn't have much balance between her career and family, and after she found out about her husband cheating on her (but she pretends like she didn't know about it). With a heavy heart, she finally decided to hire a new CEO to run her company hoping that everything will get better and at the same time, hoping that Matt will stop cheating on her.

I don't know about others but this movie works as a good exploration of purposes and relationships for me. My verdict on the movie is 8/10. Two lessons: One, different generations can learn from each other in all aspects. Two, what is important and what is priority is actually can be very different. I know most of us might already watched the movie because it's already on tv long time ago. But if you haven't and feel like watching a movie during your free time, you can count this movie in. I promise this one is a good one.

 Another spoiler alert (but just a bit hehe) ...

Actually i had the thought about The Intern movie after i watched Crazy Rich Asians on cinema the other day. The secondary heroin, Astrid, a (very) rich, faithful, loving wife married to a common people. Everything about her is perfect but unfortunately, her husband was having an affair behind her back. After she said that she actually knew about the affair, her husband acted out and wanted to leave because he doesn't feel like he fits in his wife's rich culture and whatnot and saying that as if it was Astrid's faults for making he feel that way. The most iconic moment was when Astrid told her husband that he can keep the apartment because she has 14 others to stay in. Her last word was; It's not my job to make you feel like a man. I can't make you something you are not. Damn!

 Especially if you are an Asian, please also watch this movie! All Asian casts. The main cast, Henry Golding was from Malaysia. They speak Singlish like come on, what is the difference between Singlish and Manglish? Can't tell. And it's a Hollywood movie guys. What even? The movie was about a strict, rich parent that disapproved her son's not-rich girlfriend and go watch the movie lah. The focus in this movie is not about swiping credit cards or crazy spending habits, but more than that. My verdict on the movie is 9/10.

P/S: Thank God for good movies that keep us alive.

BRUNEI SHORT TRIP

 I just have to pin this on the top of the post because i suddenly looked effortlessly kurus in this photo. I am way fatter irl but this photo is a blessing. Give a girl the right jeans and she can conquer the world (with her photos). Hehe. This was at Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin Mosque.

Top left to bottom right: Istana Nurul Iman, Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong, Kampong Ayer, Jerudong Crystal Arch.

Brunei was actually never really in our go-to list but since our Wan Cik (wife to Tok Cik, my late grandmother's younger brother) is from Brunei and she needs to go back to her hometown to renew her passport, license and everything. So we decided to tag along this time. Kak Lin and Wan Cik flew to Brunei on the 20th August but since my mom wants us to celebrate Aidiladha at home first, so we went to Brunei on the 2nd Aidiladha which on the 23rd August until the 25th.

The usual intention was to blog about my experience but since they are some of friends asking about the itinerary, budgets and stuff, so here are the details.

Our return tickets were around RM750+ per person (Royal Brunei and MAS). We converted a total of RM1800 for both of us which we got $602 ($301 for each of us). This amount was enough to pay the hotel, to buy our foods, souvenirs, this and that. We stayed at Kiulap Plaza Hotel that cost us $160 for two nights. We didn't spent any on transportation since Kak Lin was the one who took us places for free and fed us with factoids. Thank you Kak Lin! Hehe. So the itinerary:

Day 1:

Went to eat Roti Kahwin at Chop Jing Chew, Gadong

Sightseeing at Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin Mosque

Visiting Wan Cik's sister at Kampong Ayer

Dinner at a restaurant near the hotel

Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong for street foods and local fruits

Hua Ho Supermarket (next to the hotel) to buy chocolates, groceries that we can't get in Malaysia

Day 2:

Breakfast at the hotel

Thien Thien Restaurant, Gadong for Kolo Mee and Chicken Rice

Went to souvenir shop at Gadong

Sightseeing at Hutan Bukit Syahbandar, Universiti Brunei Darussalam, Jerudong Park and Istana Nurul Iman

Boat riding at Kampong Ayer, Sungai Kebun

Centrepoint Mall, Gadong to shop

Dim Sum at Gadong Properties Centre

Had our ambuyat dinner at Restoran Aminah Arif, Serusop

Day 3:

Breakfast at the hotel

Nasi Katok $1

Back to Malaysia

Overall, Brunei is not at all impressive at the first sight especially for us, Malaysians. It is not an exciting country to travel and does not try to be one. For such a loaded country, Brunei does not boast its wealth. Unlike Malaysia, Brunei does not have skyscrapers at all. Since it is a dry country, so alcohol is illegal to sell in Brunei (including cigarettes if i'm not mistaken). All shops, restaurants, supermarkets and etc are closed from 12pm to 2pm on Friday for Friday prayers. Most of their drinks cost less than $2 and most of their foods cost around $2 to $5. Nasi Katok is only $1 and we can get Nasi Katok literally everywhere in Brunei! Pasar Pelbagai Barangan Gadong was definitely my cup of tea. Most of the foods are only $1 there. The cars would automatically slow down and stop for pedestrians to cross the street which is rarity in our country. And Brunei petrol price was only $0.33 to $0.50 per litre. Crazy!

Though the pace is slow and Brunei may not have much to offer on paper since i believe that Brunei is not dependent on tourism yet, i still find Brunei as an interesting place to visit and wander. Not because of the tourist attractions but the culture. Maybe because i am myself a chilled out kinda person, so yeah.

P/S: More photos on my Instagram highlights @fiqazizi if you wish to see hehe.

Thank you Kak Lin and Wan Cik for everything in Brunei. Till then.

THE MOSCOW CIRCUS IN MALAYSIA

 

I finally went to see the circus! Another thing checked off my bucket list! Yayy! Thank god for the suddenly popped up advertisement in my email that got me like, shut up and take my money! Haha. I've never been to a circus before. So why not right? And this one is animal free! Animal free is equal to cruelty free. I mean, my heart can never afford to watch elephants standing with only two feet or tigers being torture for the sake of the show like, i swear, i can never ever enjoy that. Since all of us know that circus isn't new. It's been around for centuries where we picture clowns, flying trapeze and animals doing some amusing tricks. Therefore, it's such a heart warming to know that there is finally a circus that have no animals in their show and actually proud of it.

So it's kinda like a siblings day out since there were 4 of us; me, my sister, my bff Sarah and Haziq (Sarah's baby brother). The tickets price were from RM50 up to RM280. Me and my sister bought the RM50 rear seats. While Sarah and Haziq took the RM80 front seats. We were supposed to sit separately because of the difference in ticket category. But it was our luck to sit together since it was not full house. 

I can't tell whether it was the best circus show or not since this was my very first time. But it was a great show indeed! We did enjoyed the show until the very end especially The Master Juggler, The Flying Trapeze, The Russian Swing and everything! The Illusionists was jaw dropping. They literally changing their costumes in a flash. At first i thought they were wearing layers of costumes. But they were not! I don't know how they do it perfectly. And not forgotten, the constant feature from the beginning until the end, the circus clown. Hehe. We were really amused and entertained. It worth our 50 and 80 bucks. 

The show is still on until 2nd September at Dataran Petaling Jaya. And they are also on tour to Penang, Melaka, JB, Ipoh, Kuantan and other cities within Malaysia. Go get your tickets at The Moscow Circus Malaysia Tour 2018/19 official website to experience something different.

EXAMINATION RESULTS

The examination results are out! God knows how anxious i was before the results. But Alhamdulillah. I swear i didn't expect to get an A- for STA765. The paper has a total of 3 tests. The first two tests went well for me. But during the final test, i can only answer 2 out of 5 questions. 1 question was left blank. And the 2 other questions, i just tembak with whatever little knowledge i had. Damn. I swear i was so worried thinking that i might failed the paper. I even texted the lecturer saying that if i failed the subject, kindly please tell me what to do like extra assignments or additional test to earn some marks so that i can pass. And the lecturer just left my text with blue ticks. Haha. Crickets in the room. But no lie, i was worried sick about failing the paper. Honestly because i can't afford failing any other papers especially when i'm already extending another 1 semester for my dissertation.

And yes, i got only B for MGT790. I was expecting an A tbh because i like the subject so much. Another crickets in the room. Lol. But it was just not my luck. But hey! It's called Examination Results for a reason right? Because the outcome is always full of surprises hahaha. So overall i am really thankful and happy with my results. Even though it's not that good and i believe that i can achieve better but it is what it is. And Alhamdulillah! No more sitting for exams! Yayy! One hurdle away to getting my master's degree. May Allah ease this final journey. InsyaAllah. Amin YRA! Not forgotten, CONGRATULATIONS to all my friends who completed their master's degree already by now especially to two of my best friends, Sarah Yazmin and Anis Syafiqah. They deserved this so much. I am so proud of them. Alhamdulillah! May Allah ease their future endeavors. Amin YRA!

DISCLAIMER: I am not posting this here to be proud of my so so examination results nor being joyful of me taking another semester to complete (God knows how it hurts). Tbh, i've been in a situation where i was so secretive about me failing an exam paper. That i didn't feel the ease (at all) to go to the class, resit the exam because i wanted it to be a secret so bad. Nobody (except my closest friends) should ever know about it since i was so ashamed of myself. Suddenly everything was undercovered. Trust me, i've been there and it's not healthy. I was not happy. I keep on having paranoia attack such as; What happened if someone saw me attending to extra class? Omg my friends that pass the paper are there. Run! It was very sickening. The reason why this time, i don't want to keep it undercover anymore.

And the other reason is, i've always consider my blog as an open diary where i publish my thoughts and everything. My wins and losses, my sense and nonsense. People can read them if they want. You can read them if you want. And i know that i will read the old posts again someday in the future in my 30s, 40s or even 50s because that's what i did all the time to my past. And this blog will be one of the places where i walk down the memory lane. I want to leave it here. And there are going to be good times and bad times. It does for all of us. So lighten up brothers and sisters!

I'VE INSTALLED A WATER FILTER

I have been contemplating on installing a water filter for myself weeks before i moved out recently. You might be asking why do i need water filter? We can simply buy mineral water at 7E and everywhere. It won't cost us much. And yes. I don't deny that at all. But since i drink a lot like a camel, i don't think buying myself water bottles daily would suffice. My family have a water filter at home and my previous place at Shah Alam also got one. I mean, i am so used with water filters where i can make myself hot and cold drinks at any time even at 3am in the morning. I don't have to worry or stressed out when my bottle is already empty (my bottle is literally empty all the time) and i don't have to wait for the hot water turning to warm water so that i can drink a decent plain water. So yeah, it is nearly crucial for me to have a water filter. 

So i've installed Cuckoo King Top where i invest myself RM56.60 per month for it. Well come to think of it, let say if i buy myself mineral water daily for RM2 per bottle. And i buy it everyday for the working days which a total of 5 days per week, literally 20 days per month. RM2 x 20 days = RM40. Like, i only need to add up RM16.60 (basically a price for one Subway sandwich) and i can already get myself Cuckoo King Top with sufficient amount of water for me to drink. Hassle free. Needless to mention, only a bottle of mineral water daily is never going to be enough for me. I need to boil more water over and over again only for my daily drinks. Legit. And the decision is made, here a photo of my Cuckoo King Top, my new baby! Hehe

By the way, my sister, Syaqirin and my Kak Lin are both Cuckoo Authorized Agents. This is one of the reasons why i choose to install Cuckoo instead of others. The procedure was plain easy. Contact the authorized agents via Whatsapp, choose your desired model and price (the agents will list it out for you), send your details and a copy of your IC and debit / credit card, wait for the confirmation email and agreements from Cuckoo, confirm your order via text message and wait for the technician to come over and install the product. Worry not about the payment since Cuckoo will deduct it automatically from our debit / credit card during every first week of the month. Easy. No deposit, no additional charges and free service for 7 years. Other than water filters, they also have air purifiers and whatever. I already have my water filter so i don't really care anymore about others. Haha.

Oh if you feel like installing water filter or air purifier for the betterment of life, you can get it from the authorized agents; Syaqirin Norazizi and Lina Kamarudin. Doesn't matter where is your location, the agents can help to install the product for you. Just go to their profile and DM them. They know what to do. 

Aside from that, i can't believe that i did this. Haha. Actually, when the water filter is already installed, the water pipe at the sink should always be on so that the water will continually flow inside the filter. Or else, the water filter might be empty and heat up. Idk. I've already told my housemates about the valve position this and that. I even made a video tutorial on the instructions. Lol. But every time i go to the sink, the valve was always on the opposite side. So i edited these photos and paste near the sink. Hahaha. Yes i am that extra and overreacting. But whatever. This is one of my ways on taking care of my things. I mean, everybody is sharing the water filter with me. Why it is so hard to follow such simple instructions? Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that my housemates are dumb or whatever. I believe that one or two of them were actually not paying attention to what i said. The reason why the valve is always at the opposite side.

As wise man once said, "A simple act of paying attention can take you a long way". Second to that!

50 FACTS ABOUT ME

This entry is literally inspired by Athisha Khan's YouTube video. I was at the office and let the YouTube videos continue to play by themselves and i stuck at Athisha's 50 Facts About Me video and like, yeah i should list mine on my blog too. Hehe.

Tiny Disclaimer: This is not a 20-minute-usual-post because it actually take days to list 50 Facts About Me. I keep reverting this post to draft until the list reached 50. I feel like i'm also learning myself at the same time cause sometimes, i don't even know myself. Lol and this is a long post, i suppose. So let's begin!

 

1. I grew up and raised at a kampung named Kampung Seliau in Negeri Sembilan (i still live here until forever). I get my first education here. My kindergarten and primary school are both at Seliau. I love how i am purely from kampung but at the same time, i also know how to blend in with the so called city culture. Like, technically i can easily switch my personality from a ruralite to urbanite and vice versa. I consider it as a bonus because i believe that not everyone can handle the kampung life (for real tho). One thing for sure, you can take me out of the kampung, but you can't take kampung out of me.

2. I am only 154cm tall (short) which is equivalent to 5'1". I am short but not that short. Also fat but not that fat. Please don't ask my weight. My current weight bothers me so much. It's too heavy to ... whatever.

3. I learned and know 5 languages; Malay, English, Mandarin, Japanese and Nogori. Hahaha (what even). I speak fluent Malay and Nogori. I don't speak fluent English but i can communicate well in English. I can write and text in English super fast. I talk to myself in English. My random thoughts are in English. My English accent on my mind is super cool but when i let it out verbally, it's ugly and awkward af. Guess i need more practice or maybe it's just my voice. I learned Mandarin during my Degree studies. And i learned Japanese for 4 years during high school. Kindly please don't ask me or speak Mandarin and Japanese with me. Because i don't remember the languages much and at all. Lol. But i do claim them in my resume because why not? Hahaha elementary level of course.

4. My fat rolls are everywhere from top to toe. I hope i can get rid of them at least before my wedding day. I need to make sure that i'm happy with my wedding photos #prayforafiqahnorazizi

5. I have many nicknames ever since primary school. During primary school, one of my friends called me Kepala Penyapu. I don't even know why. My high school name is Peaqox. That's the name that my high school friends will address me until forever. Most of Diploma friends (and family) called me Piqah. And during my Degree studies, my housemates called me Mummy for some reasons. Some of my friends never really called me by my real name that when they called me by my name, i never respond to them. It's just so weird. Haha. But tbh, i like to be called Fiqah instead of Piqah.

6. I have no problem on being single. It feels good to be single (i blogged about this before: Click here). But when i'm in love, oh darling, i'm all in heart and soul. And yes, loyalty is major for me.

7. I have only one sibling, my little sister. But she is not so little anymore. She looks like a bigger sister next to me. I'm simply grateful of her existence. I wouldn't trade her for the world even though sometimes i feel like killing her.

8. I don't drink milk, i don't eat cheesecake and my least favorite meat is lamb.

9. I like lyrics, singers, blogs, bloggers, poetry, poets. These are people that make words carry the world within them.

10. I'm not afraid of heights. I would like to ride on all of the roller coasters in the world and do everything related to heights. The higher the better. Try me.

11. I don't like people who try so hard just to fit in the society especially in the wrong way. For example, "Oh all socialites drink liquor, clubbing and eat pork. So i'm gonna do the same things and post it on social media as well. Damn i'm cool af". Like, honey, stop making fetch happen. It's not going to happen! Please, never forget our root. You are who you are.

12. I always expect for the best and the worst to happen. A realist all the way.

13. I have the weirdest, funniest voice. I kinda not like my own voice.

14. Although I have a lot of acquaintances, my real-deal circle of friends is actually very small.

15. There's no such thing as coffee or tea to me. I drink both. Anytime anywhere.

16. I love animals intensely and believe strongly in animal rights. We are the voice to the voiceless. Save the animals! Love and protect them at all cost!

17. I've never forgotten those who were close to me. Even those that opted against our friendship. I'm sure i no longer occupy a room in their mind and heart. Yet in mine, they'll always find a place.

18. Sometimes, politics frustate me beyond belief. And i'm not sure whether politics or the people that frustate me more.

19. It took me three times to pass Inferential Statistics during my Degree studies (used to be my biggest secret but not anymore since it's already in the past). It's the only subject that i've ever failed in my whole life. And i failed the paper twice! I get frustated just by thinking about it. But Alhamdulillah i passed the Advanced Inferential Statistics during my Master studies in one go.

20. I am a really bad procrastinator. 7 out of 10 of my assignments were finished a day before they were due. If that!

21. I am a fast texter and always feel embarrassed (and sometimes mad) when i reply in a millisecond while other people take forever.

22. I never experienced scholarships or any loan (educational loan to be exact) in my life. My only financial source is my family. My first ever allowance that is not from my family was my intern allowance. I'm still going to get my allowance from my parents until this September. Call me spoiled or sheltered if you like. But brb, getting ready for October onwards.

23. I used to bite my nails (i still do). Unless if i have henna on or after i polish them.

24. I don't like coke, soda or any carbonated drinks. I can drink them when there's no other choice. But they will never be my first option.

25.  I’m still single.

26. For a short while, I really wanted to be a stewardess. But it was not my calling.

27.  I can tolerate grammatical errors but it bothers me when i see words with incorrect usage of uppercase and lowercase.

28. I've never had my wisdom teeth removed yet. Maybe because they still haven't come in. Idk.

29. I used to play volleyball, netball and handball in school.

30. I have both B2 and D license. I first learned to ride and drive when i was still in primary school. Thanks to my late grandma. She is the one who taught me. She even once went to a roller coaster ride with me and my sister at Genting Highlands. I swear our parents will never go on a roller coaster ride with us like ever. My grandmother was way too cool. Al Fatihah to her.

31. My phone is in my hand 24/7. Unless when it's not.

32. Everything in my computer is perfectly organized in folders within folders within folders ... I also clear my browsing history and empty the recycle bin religiously. Same goes to my phone. Good riddance, no cache, all clear.

33. Sometimes, i overreact when there's no real reason. And sometimes, i may not react at all when there's a real reason to do so.

34. I have a quote / caption bank in my phone for my future reference.

35. I consider myself as a family oriented person. I love my family more than anything in the world. They are at the center of everything. It's sad for me how we got lost in our own schedules, more often than not, forgetting these precious beings. It's good to always reflect back and consider their feelings. No matter how far we go, never put our family behind us.

36. I used to have my own diary during high school. The most valuable one was the one when i was in Form 5. I still keep it until today. The diary was thick as a brick, hundreds pages long. Very dramatic but many pages were just left blank lol! Actually it was written for our English teacher, Sir Rashid. He insisted everybody to have a diary, wrote it in English (fully English) and submitted to him daily or at least twice a week. I remember his car was so full with students' diaries. Hahaha. He read the diaries only to check on the grammars and vocabularies, not the contents because he never commented on the contents unless when the student was depressed or gone through hell, he left with some advice to ponder. The funny thing is, during that time, everybody was reading each others' diaries like a magazine. No privacy at all. Hahaha. But thanks to Sir Rashid. I never really write before. And come out i really love the idea of diary and writing. One of the reason why i am still blogging.

37. "If i could turn back time" is the phrase that once in a while, echoes in my soul. There is this sadness that overtakes my being. I always wish that i could travel back in time and do many things differently than the ones i did. Especially with my late grandmother. And i am acutely aware of the fact that she's gone years and i find myself self-conscious about the fact that, despite this passage of time, despite all those years that have rolled by, i still feel a gap where she once was, which i can't quite find anything to fill. But at the same time, i also cannot go inside a black hole where time and space are said to change places. And yes. That's the thing about "life goes on". It does. It's just that you tend to still miss the life you once had. I just need the odd moan now and again to get me through.

38. I can't clarify whether i am high maintenance or not. Sometimes i am and sometimes i am not. From a scale of 1 to 10, i guess my high maintenance level is 7.

39. 40% morning person and 60% night owl. I can actually rock both.

40. I can't imagine my life without the internet. Life without the internet is pretty hard to fathom. We use it for virtually everything including to connecting with those around us. Even my mobile data is unlimited so that i can browse anything anywhere. Dear internet, never leave us. We love you.

41. I eat almost everything. I finish my plate every time. I hate those who waste their food purposely. Especially just because of crappy reasons. If you don't wanna eat it, don't take it, don't buy it. I mean, at the other side of the world, people are hungry to death. And here you are wasting your food on daily basis. Wow such balance Yin and Yang.

42. I can see ghosts when i was a kid. Like, legit. I had sixth sense. But the ability and the memory faded as i growing up. All gone now. My family told me that when i was in primary school, there's this one time when i hate going to school because i was seeing 'things'. One time i refused to eat because i saw 'them' at the canteen. I even claimed that i saw them here and there. Until some Ustaz(s) came to heal me. Crazy years back then. Haha. But i remember nothing now. And hell no i am not seeing ghosts on daily basis. Even though i'm afraid of people more than i'm afraid of ghost. But still, since i'm always by myself, let us not seeing each other, ghosts. Thank you.

43. I don't like dolls. I never play with dolls. I hate dolls. I like Barbie dolls but only on pictures. When i was a kid, i watched Chucky (Child's Play), the doll that comes alive and become a serial killer. It was so terrifying that i ended up believe that all dolls can come alive. Until today hahaha. Call me immature but i ain't taking no risk man. No dolls in my house. Ever! But i do like teddy bears and the other cute soft toys like penguins, chipmunks and all. It's just that, i can live without them. I don't need them. So yeah, i'm good.

44. I can nod off very quickly, sleep deeply, nap at any time and fall asleep anywhere. I have the ability to fall asleep within 5 seconds of laying down or close my eyes. I could fall asleep very easily and be snoring sometimes. Idk hahaha. It doesn't matter what the situation is. Working, vacation, super tired or not tired at all. I've done this my entire life and i have no idea. I need no sheep to count to sleep. And yeah, i don't have sleep disorder.

45. Call me old school, but i really value the three magic words; PLEASE, THANK YOU and I AM SORRY. I don't care who you are, what you do, whatsoever. These words are crucial in life. Say it out loud! Everytime!

46. I have Trypanophobia. Which is fear of needles or anything that involve with injections. I don't like injections. I hate injections. I never donate my blood because of this. I saw that people are so obsessed to have the fairest, pale skin that they willing to take the risky vitamin C injections, going under the knife and all like idk man. People are just out of their mind only for vanity. Like seriously in the end, nobody even cares.

47. I used to be so obsessed with lipsticks especially matte lip cream. One time i have about 50 matte lip creams with the same colours but different brands this and that. Until one day my heart decided that i don't like them anymore. And today i have only like 10 lipsticks but the most used ones are only 2.

48. I don't have that many clothes, scarves in my wardrobe. Thank god for the washing machine. I keep recycling the same outfit. I swear i wear every piece for million times until it worn out. I only shop when i feel like it. It can be like once a month or 100 times a month depending on my mood. I am not a shopaholic. I don't splurge much on clothes, handbags, makeups and all. But when i do, i splurge a lot. Hehe

49. I have no self control over food. I can say that i'm on diet for the month but already binge af on the first day. That's how critical my self control is. I want to change so bad but most of the time i just don't care. I think it's because of i'm still in my comfort zone of which i'm already fat but not really that fat. I don't exercise. It's funny how during high school i was kinda fit. I do push up everyday, running for miles, standing under the sun for 6 hours straight and all. But the moment i'm out, i don't even have a decent sport shoes. Lol. But i do have one now. One thing for sure, if anyone ever come to me telling how fat i am in a very annoying way, my only reply would be; "I can lose weight for free. You need about ten grand to fix your f***ing face. So Miley, what's good?"

50. I get annoyed very easily and on the other note, i am also easily amused. I too can be at the state of being simultaneously amused and annoyed. Very confusing, i know. But that's just me.

P/S: There are more to spill of course. But let's just stop here and thank you to those that read until the end.
Wow! I do feel like a widely open book by now hahaha.